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DAVID'S PLACE:: FEAR FOR THE SURVIVAL OF AMERICA

DAVID'S PLACE:: FEAR FOR THE SURVIVAL OF AMERICA:                                                                  I fear that the Ukrainians courageous battle against the Russian invaders w...

FEAR FOR THE SURVIVAL OF AMERICA

                                                                

I fear that the Ukrainians courageous battle against the Russian invaders will diminish as that war disappears from the front pages of newspapers and news shows. It starts to seem that there is no problem in Ukraine just because the minute by minute reporting is not on events over there continually as it was before

That is not true.

However, our mentality makes that war out of sight and out of mind.

I fear a backlash against the Jewish nation in their retaliation for the murderous attacks committed by Hamas with initial sentiment supporting Israel and now some diminishing support.

Everyone hates killing unnecessarily.

I fear the US getting politically punished for continuing to support Israel in their effort to wipe out Hamas whose goal is to murder every Jewish person.

Unfortunately, innocent people, especially children, are victims.

It is a horror.

The President is stuck in the middle because of loyalty to Israel, and also political logic, both for and in favor of his actions. He is trying to do the right thing I feel but what is the right thing to do?

I fear that Biden is getting too overwhelmed by the pressure from the Israeli war, the Uranian war, congressional in fighting and his terribly weak polling numbers to function effectively.

He must overcome huge, complicated, obstacles despite a good record in critical arenas of chief executive moves, humanitarianism, economics, and hard core politics which puts severe pressure on him even if he were twenty years younger..

But, he is eighty one and seems too fragile and slow to juggle all the balls that he must to keep in the air to keep the country and world running

He must find the strength.. There are no options.

I fear that Trump will cause an unacceptable amount of violent political behavior in his quest in winning the 2024 presidential election and that he will make a bigger mess of the world than is already happening.

I fear for Biden getting sick and the nation being left with an inept Kamala Harris as President or worse.

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I have absolute faith in the constitution of the United States of America. I have total faith in the citizens of this democracy whoever they are and wherever they live that the majority of us want America to be a safe, lawful, patriotic two party nation.

I know that real patriots will not allow us to be sucked in and taken down by the fanatic election deniers drain who only want chaos.

We will come together again.

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OCD EATING ME ALIVE AND I AM 75

 Here I sit once again. Its a beautiful, windy day in southern Florida and I am so miserable. I am tormented by OCD(  obsessive compulsive disorder). I am writing partly because I am no longer a football fan and the NFL is raging on TV but I have no interest in any of the games and scores. I used to but 14 years ago after losing a fortune I quit gambling. I mean there is nothing more than I would love  bet football games than drive over to one of the casinos that is within minutes of my gated community and play hold em poker. But, I would lose. If not today than tomorrow, Because I have no control once I start to gamble. I'm powerless like I am over my OCD.  I cannot stop. I would go from poker, to the crap table to blackjack to baccarat while stopping in the sports book to bet games.

Normally, I would be outside playing golf or pickleball today. But, I hurt my 75 year old back yesterday overdoing the pickleball and there are no golf games today because all my golfing guys are watching football. 

Also, I have terrible OCD which has made my life miserable for as long as I can remember. I don't check the lights or the door over and over or any of that shit. My OCD is having obsessions in my mind demanding I seek retribution against anyone who has spoken to me insultingly, embarrassed me, or did something I think I have to rectify in a face to face confrontation. Not a physical fight because I am not violent. Words only.

 Right now, I have had this 82 year old guy on my mind who insulted me several years ago in an old mans softball game.. I have tried to find him several times to say "you owe me an apology" and I have looked for him at a bunch of ballfields and bars he used to go to but with no luck.

I did talk to him and text him but he just would not give me the satisfaction of really listening to me so I could get that apology. So, seeing him face to face is the only thing I want to do which I am sure will make things worse since he does not even know anything is wrong.

Also, I have been in real trouble for chasing after other people who I had gotten into an argument with, or who had intimidated me begging them to to either shake hands, apologize to me, allow me to explain myself or anything to get rid of the thought that I had to confront them off my mind. Desensitization is the word.

It has resulted in harmless physical fighting, and all kinds of other things so I could stop thinking about someone who offended me. The problem is that if I actually settle an issue another issue pops up and the mental torment returns, Or, the same issue gets mor complicated.

My OCD is never about hurting anyone I am chasing. I never have hurt anyone intentionally.  Anyway, I know where this 82 year old guy lives and plays ball. Trouble comes after I do occasionally chase someone down. Because I always want to tell them more after the confrontation is over and since they do not know its OCD and then they get scared and the next thing you know I'm standing in front of lawyers and a judge.

So, I am afraid to really go to this guys house or keep chasing him around places where he goes became I 'm lucky I have not found him or this could already be a much bigger problem. It always happens that way. This man probably does not even remember the little nothing argument we had. Also, he would think I was crazy if he listened to my whole spiel. Then, I'd be obsessed trying to get him let me explain to him I was not crazy.

So, without going further this is OCD and has nothing to do with anything but my own sick mind. I try and try to let this go like all the other obsessions I have experienced but it is an almost superhuman feat to change thinking that tells you to do the wrong thing instead of the right thing which is work on myself and not a symbol.. Believe me, I have had a ton of therapy, pills, meditation, and other writing. 

My OCD still comes down to me accepting it and not trying to fight the OCD but realizing its really me that is the problem and not some guy I do not care about. 

I'm not going to edit this story and keep editing until its a worthy article. This is all about me. Thanks.

David