Tuesday, March 3, 2015

Do I Have A Future As A Writer? Rough Draft.

 Should I Go Back To Driving A Cab or Is There A Writer In me?

David interior of Lucy’s apartment
Arrives at Lucy’s The Match

Fade In
David sits at his computer scanning the online dating site like a trained hunter. He sees this tall, seductive but funky looking woman of about 50 and looking very indifferent. Kinda smug. Posing like a hotter version of  Faye Dunaway in Bonnie and Clyde” but so very obviously intelligent and also streety.  Tall too. Great looking body.  David wonders out loud “Is she hot or not”?

His 62 year old trained eyes coupled with years of dating experience do not tell him a story. She could be a good one but probably isn’t” She’s probably not worth trying to meet he decides. Then, he goes back to look at her and reads her profile her again. Then again he reconsiders.
“Divorced, self employed, no kids living at home” her profile states. She seems so unaffected, uncaring about whether she gets any attention or not, as if she were forced onto the site by a friend or daughter. David mumbles bullshit probably to himself.  However, worth an email to her he decides.

Interior David apt


David “Hi. Check my profile and pictures and see whatcha think. Maybe we could talk? Sincerely David”

Fade Out To Lucys Apt

“This blows” she tells Deborah , her friend who convinced her to pay and get on match.com, the online meat market.  “ I keep getting emails from babies and idiots “ This is not where I want to be”. She points at her computer and shows Debbie a mountain of emails that have come from men all over who fired off their best lines her.
Lucy”Look at this guy” she taunts and tells Debbie that they both  should go out for a drink and waste no more time..

Then, as an afterthought Lucy glances at her match.com inbox one more time and sees an email from David. She checks his profile information. “What does this dope have to say she asks Debbie?
Lucy reads profile, “divorced, still working, no kids at home” lives nearby. She looks at his pictures. No big deal but interesting..

Certainly not an appropriate fit for her cavalry of old boyfriends. She wonders, “can this grey haired somewhat weird looking but maybe slightly sexy guy make her wild libido explode. Like the first boyfriend she had after she left her nice Jewish,  but very boring lawyer husband for.” 

It took Johnny Loren, ex lightweight world champion boxer to finally give her the animal, insatiable sexual fulfillment she had tried to bury with booze, parties, and many partners
. There was a 25 year history of relationships with all kinds of black, Hispanic and every other kind of man who could recite poetry and fuck at the same time.

But, all that was over and the pickings were slim. Alcoholism had wiped out most of her following except for the cadre of loyal friends, men and women who wanted her all the time in some way but who only served to amuse Lucy.

Lucy“ Ok deb,” I’m ready to go out but hang on? I’m gonna write this David guy back. “I have nothing happening tomorrow night and I am curious” she smirked.”

Lucy Interior apt

Lucy “Maybe we could meet for a drink tomorrow night. Here is my number.
Lucy”


Fade To David
Interior apt

David looks at his match.com emails and sees the Bonnie and Clyde person. It is Lucy who had written back.”

David picks up the phone.

“Hi. This is David, the guy from match. How are you?
Lucy-fine. Just dancing around the place. She sounded tipsy.
David-“Would you like to meet tomorrow night for a drink’?
Lucy ‘that’s what I had in mind”
Lucy “how about the Ritz bar on rush st?
David “Fine. I look just like my picture David says?
Lucy“Really? Wow” “That’s exciting” sarcasm dripping from her already.
Lucy- 7.30, ok?
David“I’ll be there”

Fade to Interior of Bar

David sits outside bar not seeing Lucy. Finally, he goes inside and sits at the bar next to this very Slavic looking, tall and sexy woman with a great face and red hair.

Lucy“are you David?’ “
David-“Yes” You’re Lucy.”
Lucy-“Uh, yeah, I have been sitting here”.
Lucy-“Are you always in such a daze?
David”Not always”

David-“ I just didn’t know you were here already”.
Lucy-“Obviously” she retorts but with sweet amusement.

Interior at bar
Sizing each other up

David is swept away by the obvious beauty and salty personality of this new person. He tries to read Lucy but cannot.
Then, she smiles at him and says she would like to sit down in a small, intimate, booth in the back of this empty bar owned by her friend.

Interior little booth

She looked at this tall guy with black glasses and an athletic body and was very attracted. He had this face that she found uniquely beautiful. Her mind danced and skipped at a furious pace. He was no wild crazy stud but he did it for her immediately like no one she had ever met before. She could hardly contain herself as they sat together in the little booth. Being the worlds most impulsive woman she wanted to start kissing him right away.
Lucy “I want an Italian Beef sandwich.” Will you take me?
David-“Sure”

Interior-
Als Beef Stand

David and Lucy exchange their first kiss with beef juice dripping from both their lips.  It was mutual magic. They stare at each other with hearts throbbing
 Lucy-“I have to go home for just a little while” It’s close”
David-“Why”
Lucy “ I have to walk my dog”. 
David-“Ok”

Interior Davids Car
As we got back into my car Lucy went wild with passion. All she wanted to do was kiss me as we swerved long the most dangerous area of a Chicago expresswway. It was a dream”
David-Where am I going”
Lucy-“ Turn there. No. not there. There That’s right.
Lucy-Jesus. “No sense of direction for a guy”

Interior Car-Near lucys condo

David-“ what kind of dog do you have?
 Lucy-“A Doberman 

David- I’m freaked out totally”
Lucy.”Your body is wet from sweat. You look white as a sheep”

David-“I have had a terrible fear of dogs in general my whole life and particularly, Pit Bulls, Dobermans, German Shepards They are dogs I would always cross the street to avoid.

 “Lucy-Well, get past it”
David’No. I cant”

David“I am never going in your house. Ever,”
Lucy-“OK”

She just seemed to not hear me and kept trying kissing me.

Lucy-“You can stay downstairs in your car while I walk him”
Lucy-“I”ll come back.
Lucy”Then we can kiss some more”.
Lucy-“I don’t not want the night to end..

Davids Car-Lucy leaving to go walk the dog

David- “ok”

I was determined to stay in the car.
Lucy “why don’t you just get out of the car and stand downstairs by the stoop and you can go for a walk with us. That might make you less afraid. Sitting in your car won’t do anything”

David “that’s ok I said, “I’ll stay right here.
Lucy started to get out of the car. I sat there feeling like a coward. I knew I would have to face the dog sometime because this was probably going to be a romance.


David “wait Lucy”. “Does the Doberman bite?” “
Lucy-“Yes, I have had to pay off several people she bit already.”
David-“Well, will she be ok with me?”
Lucy”I don’t know” she answered in her brutally honest and unwavering style.”
Lucy-“, You pussy”Cmon’ She motioned to follow her up to the stoop outside her apartment.
David-“ Ok.You got me”
David trips on the curb going toward Lucys.
Lucy-Jesus, “I cant take my eyes off you for a minute”.
David-“Not so smooth, huh”?
Lucy-“Your lips are.”

For whatever thinking went through me I decided to defy a lifelong fear and throw caution to the wind. I followed Lucy upstairs into the dark house instead of staying downstairs. I was certain would get mauled by this Doberman protecting Lucy.

I was scared beyond words. So scared that the fear left me frozen in large part as I stood in the housed waiting for the dog to sink its teeth into me and tear me apart. It did not happen.  The dog only sniffed me. We went downstairs and walked the dog.

Exterior of street walking dog

Lucy-“Sweetie is her name”
Sweetie is a beautiful dog.

David” Oh” Nice looking dog”
I stayed away from bumping into Sweetie as we walked

I made it through the walk unscathed. Terrified.

Interior-Lucys
Lucy-“Be good sweetie. Mommy will be back later

Lucys hallway-Walking downstairs back to my car
I breathe a sigh of relief feeling very brave.

David-“I did it. I faced my greatest fear”
Lucy-“Congratulation” Give me your lips”

We kissed for hours till our lips were raw.



David interior Apt
Phone rings

Lucy” Hi. It’s Lucy. Want to go to this benefit I’m speaking at tomorrow night?
David-“Yeah”

Interior of Ballroom
Lucy talks to Dick someone, a publisher.

Lucy-“Ya know Dick, that article you wrote was just great. But I don’t see how the Polish government will pull that off “
The conversation with Lucy and her friend who I thought was hitting on her went on and on. Finally. although I was so new and just a guest at this fancy dinner where she was speaking about her films in Poland to all these distinguished people I could not stand being ignored by her for so long while she spoke to one person after another.

David “this is so rude. I cannot understand why you are ignoring me?
Lucy-“ You?
Lucy-“What are you a baby ?”
Lucy-“You need constant attention?”
Lucy “”Stop whining”? I am doing business.”
David“I am pissed”. “You are being rude to me”
Lucy looked both angry and amused at my temerity. We had our first argument but it didn’t last.
Lucy-“You’re sick she smiled as we left”
Lucy-“I’ll buy you some toys”




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Interior-Davids Apartment

A few days later we had our second date. She came to my apartment. I started to show her pictures of my three kids, the wallpaper, the view and she just didn’t care. She kissed me again and again. She was indifferent. She literally threw me onto my king sized bed. I looked up at her irresistible body and face as she stood over me ready to devour me. We made wild love that day and stayed in bed for about 2 months afterward with breathers for food, movies, and a little work. It was the sex I had dreamed of my whole life but never thought peoplke did it except in the movies or in books. We made love for 5 hours.

David Interior Apt
Phone rings

Lucy: Do you want to go to a dinner party Sat night?
David-Sure?
Lucy-“Its’ formal. Got a suit or tux?
David-“Yes.
Lucy-“You can meet some of my friends. There’s a bunch whole going out to dinner. David-“I’m in”

Fade to restaurant bar

David- Where is this place (as they ride around?
Lucy-“I think it’s up a few blocks ahead.
Lucy-turn left
David “OK”
Lucy-“you just turned right”
David-“I thought you said turn right”
Lucy  “Oh. I remember” You get confused when your driving:”
Lucy “There it is.”
Jims restaurant”
Lucy “Why don’t you drop me off and find a place to park
David drives around trying to find a parking space. Hits the curve hard.

Interior restaurant

Lucy makes introductions of her friends to David. She is talking slurry. She seems to be getting drunk quickly.
Lucy-David, this is my friend Laura”
Laura- “So David, where did you graduate college?”
David-I didn’t finish college
Laura- Oh, What do you do?
David-“I’m unemployed.”
Laura-Looking strangely at David. Lucy peering in. Well, I thought if you were with Lucy you…. David cuts her off
David-“Do you need a job to date Lucy?”
David“I’m getting on the job training.”
Lucy intervenes
Lucy-“He’s not the brightest bulb Laura, but he’s good in bed.”
“Must be” snorts Laura
David-“Im great. Why would I be in this distinguished company?” david says sarcastically at Laura

Interior Davids Car
Lucy and David go to his  car

Lucy explodes.
Lucy-“Nice”.
David-Nice?
Lucy-Did you have to act like an asshole?
David-Asshole”?
Yeah. “Why would you talk snotty to my friend like that?
David-“I’m an idiot trying to cover up insecurities.”

Lucy
“Let’s go to the awards.”
“Try to remember where I tell you to turn’

 Interior Awards dinner.
Lucy still acting tipsy and slurring words

Lucy-“I don’t think you and I are going to work.”
David- “Not if you can’t stop drinking we won’t.”
Lucy-“That has nothing to do with you being rude to my friends’
David-“I wasn’t”
Lucy-“how about Laura”/
Lucy-“Take me home.” Your nasty”
David-“Stop it.”
Lucy-“Fuck you”
David-“Ok I’m taking you home.”
Lucy-“Try not to get lost. I’ve noticed you drive like a blazen”.”
David-“Whats that?”
Lucy“A deer lost in the headlights.”

 David “I drive fine.”
David gets lost quickly again

Lucy-“You were supposed to turn there.”
David-“How would you know?”
Lucy-“I’m drunk but not unconscious”
David-“Maybe you could get a package deal-2 for 1
Lucy-“Driving school and a school for social graces.”

Exterior
In front of Lucy’s house in car

Lucy starts to jump out quickly.
David-“should I help you up the stairs”?
Lucy-“Don’t bother. You’d only get lost getting back to your car.”
Lucy-“Were done.”

Reunited after a day apart by phone call from David.

Interior of David’s Car


Lucy asked me if I wanted to go to this guy Paul Scott’s summer house over the weekend after we made up She promised a big house on the beach in Michigan and a bunch of other people who would all go there and have a good time eating, drinking, and relaxing. The plan was that I would pick up Lucy and her sister Linda at Lucys house at 11.30 am on a Friday and we would take a nice leisurely drive of about an hour and a half to go to Paul’s house. More people would be coming. I was excited. Lucy promised a nice easy trip. No hassles,  A loving weekend which should  have tipped me off. It was truly the nightmare weekend from hell.

Lucy- “you were supposed to be here at 11.30”
David- “So. Its 12 o clock.}}”
David- Is 30 minutes with nothing to do a disaster?
Lucy-“Yes”
David-“I’m sorry”
Lucy-“gee, sorry again” sorry sorry sorry”
Lucy- “what is there that you ever do that you’re not sorry about?”

We all get in my car which Lucy decides she will drive because I do not drive well enough to suit her. I get into the back seat and her sister Linda, one of of America’s miserable people, sits in the front. I might of well have been a prisoner who had raped a child in the company of two sadistic guards who hated me and could barely stand to have me in the car. Their anger and contempt was so intense.

They talked and talked to each other only. The closest Lucy got to talking to me or even paying attention to me was glancing in her rear view mirror once every twenty five minutes to see if I hopefully had fallen out of the car.

Linda, who hardly knew me, was in her evil heaven with me in solitary confinement. She quietly delighted that I was being totally ignored by Lucy and easily took the queue. The two sisters chatted about everything you could imagine as we drove along the hwy. I tried to be part of the conversation many times. No. No one cared bout anything I had to say at all. I couldn’t believe that my treatment could be so rotten. Lucy and I were falling apart in chunks and these was just a few months after we were ready to move in together, get married, and stay in bed forever needing no one else in the world.
Now, I had been reduced to an unwanted passenger in route to a weekend of fun which Lucy did not even want me to be part of.

Lucy-There’s this real good lunch place called Gigios that Paul told me us to eat at.
Linda-Fine.
Lucy-“they have great hamburgers.”
David-“I know of this fifties type diner that is great” It’s called Pennys.
Lucy-“we already know where were going”
didn’t you hear what I just said?”
David- (Pissed) I want to go to Pennys”
 It will be my highlight of this fine ride
Lucy-“lets go there Linda He’s a baby but maybe the place is good.”
Linda-Fine. We find Pennys diner

 Lucy-“David, we’ll get out in front and you park the car”
David ” Nice of you to give me something to do.
Lucy- “see if you can avoid hitting another car. Also, see if you can get back to this crappy little joint without getting lost. I don’t want to have to go find you.”
David-“the place is only across from a parking lot
 Lucy-“that’s far enough to confuse you”

Interior restaurant
The three of us sitting at a table

Waitress-“what will you guys have?”
Everyone orders but I start to chat up the waitress thinking being cute will get me some redemption from the mental abuse being inflicted by Lucy’s continual silence and mean sarcasm. I showed the waitress a little hand sanitizer that I had been selling many of. I sell advertising specialties
David- to waitress-“stick out your hand’
She does and I squirt the sanitizer spray into the waitress’s hands. Lucy rolls her eyes as her sister just looks on nodding no expression. Her mean face continually says it all to everyone.
Waitress-“that’s really cute”
David-“show it to your boss. My number is on it”
Waitress “ok”
waitress walks away to other customers

Lucy-Did you have to do that? “You know how uncomfortable you make me feel when you hustle your garbage around me.” Why are you so dopey”
David-“I hustle good”
Lucy-“Really good. That’s why you have no money”
David-“I’m trying”
Lucy- “like you tried to pick us up at 11.30 and show up at 12. or try to talk to my friends or try to drive right”.
David- “So, whats the big deal?”
Lucy-“The big deal was that you ruined this whole weekend already”
David- “over being late half an hour”?
Lucy-it’s cumulative. “You are a blazen.
David-“whats that”
Lucy-“A deer in the headlights”
Lucy ” Your dick is your only asset”
David-“wow”
Lucy-“Lets go or do you want to try to sell something to another store as long as were here
David-“Funny”
Lucy to Linda- “It’s sad”

We pull up to Pauls beautiful summer home. I am still getting ignored as I walk around this massive house and check it out. Lucy announces she will be going to the beach with her sister
I say “I think I’ll just stay in and watch TV”


Lucy –“that is a great idea”. Why don’t you  just take a nap until the next morning?
I follow Lucy and Linda down to the beach about a half hour later.

I’m feeling like I need strong medication for post traumatic stress disorder.

We all layed on beach chairs together. Naturally, no one is talking to me. The sisters just chat away as if I was not there. I start to get bored after about an hour on the beach.
 I get up and get ready to go back to the summer house.
David- “I'm going in”
Lucy-“Can you find your way there she spits back, tuned into her automatic sarcasm mode”
David- “No. I don’t think so. Want come back with me? Maybe we can get a quickie in before anyone even notices”
Lucy- why don’t you go in the bathroom and beat off. You like that better anyway.

I go back to the house and watch TV.

Dinner

About 7 different people are sitting around before dinner talking about old times. Again, I am not included in the conversation. Everyone thee is old friends from Lucy’s home town of Berwyn
If you ever heard of Berwyn that is the rough, mean area near Chicago  where Al Capone ruled Chicago from.

It is made up primarily of hard core two fisted drinkers, fighters, and wife beaters. Becoming a mechanic after growing up in Berwyn is like becoming a brain surgeon or rocket scientist from where I grew up. Lucy's charm and her brutality were honed by her upbringing in Berwyn. With all of her worldly accomplishment in film making and writing the Berwyn girl is still in her. She is tough. And, she is mad at me.
For what? Because I was half an hour late picking up her and her sweet sister up? And a few other mistakes in her mind.

We all have a nice dinner made by Paul Scott and his wife. Our hosts.
We sit around and then the whole group gets tired at about 11 pm. Lucy and I have a cute room with individual beds downstairs by the kitchen.

I sneakily swallow down a big Viagra as we get ready for bed. I feel the great big hard on arriving as I lay down in Terrys bed. I figure redemption is still possible. Also, despite everything Lucy is the hottest, sexiest woman on earth. I will sweep her away with passion like usual and then she will sweeten up. I crawl into her bed and push my rod against her rear end as I wrap my arms around her and pull her towards me.

Lucy- “Not here she shrieks”
David-“Why not, No one is around”
Lucy-“they’ll hear Just go to sleep. I m not in the mood anyway”
David-“Why not? You always are. I think to myself that this is really going to be a grim unsalvageable situation”.
Lucy-“I’m tired”.
I go into my own bed and hope that tomorrow will be better.
David-“This problem with us is only about being late picking you up?”
Lucy-“No”. “It’s about my poor choices in men And your general style blazen. Goodnight”.

We both go to sleep. First I quietly wacky off very silently so the new ice maiden won't hear. After all I have this big Viagra dick with no Lucy to use it on. I get away with it without her hearing. I think. At about 3am I wake up. I’m starving and I am naked also. I walk over to the kitchen and open the refrigerator door. I look at a great selection of cookies and deli meats. Perfect. I am finally happy but only for a second. Next to me at the refrigerator is Lucy
Lucy-“What re you doing?”
David-“Getting something to eat”
Lucy-“You’re naked and standing at a strangers refrigerator in the middle of the night she asks incredulously
David”Yeah I say, not thinking very much of it.
Lucy-“people don’t do that”
David-“I do”
Lucy—“your obviously not people I am realizing quickly”.
David-“I’m hungry I say grabbing at some salami.”
Lucy-“Get your hands off that and go back to bed you idiot. She is raging mad. We are nose to nose standing at that refrigerator.”

She is not joking in her rage at me. I am still hungry not thinking that anyone would care about me eating some food while the whole house is upstairs and asleep. Being naked never occurred to me.
Lucy “Get back in bed she snaps and glares at me like I was a housebroken dog who had just shit on the floor.
I go back to bed.

Ride Back to Chicago
Interior car

David-“Lucy, can we just forget about the Paul Scott disaster?”
Linda-“Why should she forget about you standing in front of the refrigerator naked? What an embarrassment”
David-“That’s what you think Lucy?
Lucy-What should she think?
David-You can think about minding
your own business Linda. “It’s me and Lucy with the problem and it’s none of your business”
Lucy-“It’s my sister therefore it’s my business”
Lucy-“David, none of your pouting, petulance, or being the victim or anything else is going to change anything. We are obviously through”.
David-“Fine”

Dissolve to lost car

David-“I can’t remember where my car is parked
Lucy- Gee. What a surpriseWhy don’t you just jump out here? It can’t be more then a few miles away”.
David-“Funny”.
Exterior
Cruising around until David’s car is found.

David-“Do you want me to call you later?”
Lucy-“Never”

Lucy drives away
David at home
D-Dialing Lucy- depressed and beaten
David-“Hi”
Lucy What?
David-“Can we talk?
Lucy-“No Now, how many times do I have to say no before you give up again?”
David-“I’ll never give up”
David-“Can I come over?
Lucy-No, David. Can’t you hear me? No wonder you always got your way. You just don’t take no. I’d like to yell at your mother”.
David- “You wouldn’t be talking this much if you weren’t feeling a little something for me”.

Lucy-Only if you walk Sophie and don’t bother me she laughs.
David breathes easier. She is relenting

Interior Lucys apt.

 “I’m working on the Poland script”. “Im leaving a week from today for 3 months not that you’ll remember.”
David-“Oh No”
David “You didn’t tell me”
Lucy-You don’t pay attention to anything ive noticed”
David-“What are you going to do with Sophie”? (David looking very worried about Sophies care)
  Lucy-“I don’t know yet.”
David-I’m coming over now.
Lucy-Remember; leave me alone when you get here.
David-OK

Sophie jumps up excited

David-Oh my little Sophie
Sophie licks and loves David
Lucy acts like she doesn’t notice. She sits at her computer typing.

David plays with Sophie after walking her. They clearly love each other after only a few months. Lucy softens more. She wraps her arms around David.
Lucy-“Don’t ever forget your’e my blazen and I love you.”
They make fast and wild love as Sophie watches.

David-“So, what about Sophie when you leave?’
Lucy-“I’m going to give her away. I will find someone.”
David-“I think it would be better to put her down then give her to anyone. No one on earth can handle her. You know that”
Lucy-“I would never put her down David”
David-Why?
 David[“Then she would be at peace and so would we. Think about that versus not knowing how a stranger will handle her or that he won’t mistreat her. She loves you and me only. She can’t be anywhere else but here.”
David- “You know no one else can handle her”
Lucy—“I have to go away and Sophie will be fine”.
David--Will you promise me something

Lucy-“Oh honey. Look at you. You’re so sad. Why are you such a blazen with everyone I introduce you to?”
David-“I’m not a blazen with Sophie
Lucy grabs Davids face
Lucy-“You’re so beautiful honey”
David-“Really?”
Lucy-“You know you are”
David-“I don’t”
T-“Cmere”
She pulls Davids head between her big breasts
Lucy-“Are you my baby?”
David-“Yeah”
Lucy_Can't you learn to act right? I cant take you anywhere.
D-“I’ll be better”

They kiss deeply and passionately
David-Fight over?
Lucy-“It was over when you called”

David-“Promise me one thing.”
Lucy-“What?”
David-“Promise that you won’t do anything with Sophie without talking to me. If you give her away I want to know the details and have input.
Lucy-“I promise. You’ll know everything.”
.
Pan away as David leaves Lucy’s

David Interior at home

Ring Ring,
David-“Hello”

Lucy-David?  “Who do you think it is?
David_” What bad thing are you going to tell me?”
Lucy-“How do you know me so well?”
David-“What?”

Lucy-“There is this handyman I have used many times. He loves Sophie and Sophie loves him. He is Ashas cousin. She vouches for his integrity”
Lucy-“He was over doing some work.
David-So?
 Lucy-“I gave Sophie away to him”.
David-“What?”
T-I gave Sophie to Niño. That’s his name” She’ll be fine. She loves him more then me”
David-“Bullshit”
David-You promised you wouldn’t just do it.
David-You don’t know anything about this guy
Lucy-“Honey, I know what I’m doing. I told you he’s good”
David-“You don’t know shit you bogus assshole”
David- Crying.

David-“How could you?’
David “You just gave her away to a stranger”  our Sophie.
David strtas to cry uncontrollably. He genuinely is broken up about Sophie

David-interior of his apt
Impact sinking in to David
Talking to Lucy on phone

David-“Why Why Why?
  David”You promised Lucy you fucking liar.”
Lucy-“it’s done and you’ll have to get over it. You can visit her”
D-I don’t want to visit her. I want her here”
Lucy-“She’s gone honey and I’m going to be gone too in a week for 3 months.

I told Nimo he could bring her back anytime he didn’t want her anymore.

David-“Were finished forever. I never want to hear your voice again”.
% months go by
5 months later Lucy returns

David is seized with fits of crying over Sophie the entire 5 months. He keeps talking to her and begging her for forgiveness for letting her get away. He just can’t get over her.. Tranquilizers keep him going. His heart is broken in 2 parts. One for Sophie, the other over Lucy  although hatred of Lucy relieves it sometimes. There is no relief about Sophie.

Interior Davids car =5 months later

David driving car
 David dials a customer but gets Lucy on the phone instead
David-“Your home?
Lucy-“Yes. I have been for 3 weeks”.
David-“Oh”.
Lucy-“Why did you call?
David-It was an accident. I was dialing someone else and you were there.
Lucy-“You’re lying”
No. “Really”.
David-“I wasn’t even thinking about you.”
Lucy-“I don’t believe a word out of your mouth.”
David-“I don’t care” “It was an amazing coincidence”
David-“I’m coming over”

Interior of Lucys hallway

Lucy-“That didn’t take long”.
David-“I told you I never wanted to hear from you again.Then I heard your voice before.”
Lucy-“You big baby.”
David-“You gave away Sophie”-
Lucy-She’s fine. I just checked on her.
David-She is?
Lucy-“Yes.”
Lucy and David make long hours of passionate love renewing vows of eternal love.

Interior Lucys apt
Phone rings

Lucy-“Are you serious?”
Lucy-“Yes. Of course you can.”
Lucy-When do you want me to pick Sophie up?
Lucy-“Great”
Lucy”Is she ok?”
Lucy-“Wonderful.
Lucy’Thank you Nino”
Lucy-Great. I’ll be there tomorrow at 10 am.

David-Jumping up and down screaming for joy listening to conversation.

Lucy-“Nimo just called and is giving back Sophie”.
Lucy-“He says he has to work too much now at his new job to keep her.”
David-“It’s a miracle. I can’t believe it. I hope she is ok.”
Lucy-“He said she was fine’


Pan to Sophie on the bed with Lucy and David.
Sophie going crazy licking Lucy and David.

David-“Oh Sophie, My baby. Oh, I missed you so much. Now were all back together.”

Fade out with Lucy and David and Sophie all in bed sleeping peacefully


Dissolve to shrinks office (Joanne)
David-She just won’t stop drinking
Lucy-He’s’ exaggerating
David- “You call blacking out and staying in bed for  weeks an exaggeration?
Lucy-“Enough”
Shrink –“I don’t think either of you are in a healthy relationship.
David-“This is bullshit. You got no idea what kind of problems she has” (TO shrink)
Lucy-“And I don’t need you to tell her.  Sorry shrink”.
Lucy-“He’s leaving. I’m sorry he came.”
David-“So am I”

Outside shrinks office

Lucy-“I told you we couldn’t work. I gave you too many chances. You just don’t know how to act with anyone.
David-“That shrink sucks. She’s a waste of time.”

Lucy “What do you suppose you are?”
David-“Goodbye again and for the final time”
David-“Just don’t do anything stupid with Sophie like giving her away again”
Lucy”- “But I am going away again in a few months for another 2 months. “I have my nephew Johnny staying at my house and taking care of Sophie. He has your number. You can help him with her”.
David-“Ok I will. Anytime he needs me”.
David getting [hone calls reputedly from John to walk her. David loves Sophie more and she fills his loneliness with the unconditional love he wants so badly from Lucy

Interior car-Airport
Lucy comes home with David picking her up at the from airport

Interior shot-
Lucys condo
Broken expensive vase david broke trying to put a leash on Sophie
Lucy-“What’s this she screams?
D-“I broke it trying to get Sophies leash on”
Lucy”How could you break it? Its 7 feet high.
D-Well, you see……………….
Lucy-“What an idiot?” another example of your incompetence”
David-I’m sorry”
Lucy-“I missed you honey. Let’s just be together for a few days. Stay here”
David-“Heart pounding. Ohhh K”
Lucy”Will you go out and get me some things at the store. I’ll cook us a nice dinner.
David goes
Supermarket interior
David calling with questions about what he was told by Lucy to buy.
No answer.

Interior of Lucys 30 minutes later

Dark apartment
Lucy passed out in bed with 2 empty bottles of wine on the nightstand.
David shakes his head in disbelief.
David Here we go again-
 David walks Sophie  and both come back and sits on an unconscious, drunk Lucys bed

David leaves.

Lucy and David stop sleeping together but continue to talk.
Interior
David at Health club calling Lucy
David-“Hi Lucy”
Lucy-I’m leaving for 2 weeks to California for vacation.
Who is going to take care of Sophie? (David afraid)

Lucy“I was thinking of giving her to Nimo again. Maybe he’ll take her. Or I could give her to Nicki, my friend who owns a boarding kennel. But she has done so much already
David-I’ll take her
Lucy-“You will?”
David-I’ll move in to your house and stay with Sophie.
Lucy—“Really”?/
David-“Yeah”

David-Call to Lucy from car after thought about taking care of Sophie.

David-“I’m coming over”
T=”No”
D “I have to talk to you”
T “About what?”
D- “Ill tell you when I get there’

Interior of Lucy’s apt

David-I've been thinking about moving in here and taking care of Sophie and I'm conflicted.
Lucy-“cut to the chase”
David-“I don’t want to do it
Lucy-“I figured as much when you called”
David-“Crying”
Lucy”-“Oh honey, don’t cry. You’re just a pussy and everything will be fine. I’ll call Nicki. She'll take her.
David” I’m so sorry.”
Lucy—“I know you are. Come lay down in bed with me.

They are passionate and happy together without making love all night long

Pan to Dominick’s foods the next morning

David-“ Where is the dog food section?
Clerk “Isle “18”
David-“Thank you.”

David bewildered over what kind of wet and dry dog food to buy.

Pan to Dog kennel

Nicki—“Hi David”
Hi Nicki
Here is all the food
Nicki- “Lucy tell you which kind to buy?”
“I don’t want Sophie to get diarrhea.”
David_”I bought a whole assortment.”
Nicki-Ill call Lucy It’s all good”  Nicki trying to get rid of a concerned David.


lucy and David make plans to meet at her house that night at 9 pm. For a goodbye visit David sets himself up with Viagra, rubbers, and is ready to rekindle their relatiojnship again with lovemaking

David walks into a dark house. Lucy is in bed. Drunk.
Lucy-“ you couldn’t even buy the right dog food”
David-I’m sorry. I tried”
David decides to give up permanently.

She will never stop drinking. He goes home promising to take Lucy to the airport the next morning.

Interior of Davids Car
“Bye Lucy” Be careful.
Lucy” I will honey”
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Sunday, March 1, 2015

Sober Compulsive Gambler Tormented To Gamble Again

So I am sitting at my desk in my condo. I am still torn between betraying my lover/mother who takes care of me in every way. Emotionally, financially, and spiritually. Except, she is married to someone else and is out of town most of the winter. It's better when she is in town and keeps me out of this clinical depression.

So, I have been resisting the perpetual urge to start gambling again although I have been clean and sober for over six years If I gamble she will find out quickly even if I sneak it. Also, my kids and few close friends would immediately lose all respect for me and lose all trust. I would be cutting myself off from the easiest life one could imagine. I have not gambled in over six years.

I am covered financially by my very rich sugar momma only because I do not gamble. If I do gamble she would cut me off in a second. I would end up broke and living in the gutter. Now, I live in a penthouse and have plenty of money between driving a cab, making money from a promotional business, and getting social security. If I'm short of cash or want anything then all I have to do is call momma..She never says no.

Still, the monster to gamble lives within me. I want to chuck it all an go back to the craps table, play online poker and bet ballgames. I want eject myself from this desk and make a furiously fast journey to Las Vegas or just go to one of the gambling boats thirty minutes away from my house..The addiction to gamble has remained so powerful that it eats at me every minute of every day. It is all I want to do.

So, I sit here at the age of 66 in torment. I am too smart and have lived the degenerate life in previous years for too long so all I need to do is play the tape of what my life will evolve to if I go back into action.. No sugar mama, no respect from my family who I have punished, no respect from my few friends and no respect for myself.

Yet, I am tempted to throw it all away.

The hardest truth is I am a horrible gambler who almost never won and manged to lose almost two million dollars.I don't even have a plan.

 I just want to give in to the impulse and go gamble..