David's Place: Hillary: Tell Me It Ain't So

LOVE SICK OLD GUY SUFFERS A BROKEN HEART BECAUSE OF A BIG MOUTH

I just blew the one chance I've had in several years to find the last love of my sixty nine year old male life. I blew it because this gorgeous lady I met on match.com warned me the first time we went out that she would would never surrender to my way of trying to control and dominate her. She saw that defect as soon as she showed a little interest in me. She is a therapist, in her sixties, free spirited, financially secure, kids are grown, sexually uninhibited and open for love.
Perfect.

I was immediately swept away on our first date several months ago  My love starved self got carried away and started trying to turn a few simple kisses into an instant love story.  My seductive, aggressive style is all I ever knew and it had served me well occasionally. Mostly it had burned me in romance, money, people, business, and everything else I used it for. Despite that, I thought,that my life of loneliness was at an end. I felt I had found my final soul mate. 

Naturally,  I wanted to immediately transform this woman  on our first date into a life long relationship.  I wanted to do it all in one night. I wanted her to fall in love with me and I wanted to stay with her forever. I knew all that in five minutes...

She did not want to go on that wild ride with me. After she cautioned me about coming on to strong  as we sat in the back of this bar she gave me another warning as I obliviously kept grabbing at her.. She snapped "please" as I removed my hand. .But, I was too slow.

She announced that she wanted to leave. She asked if I always acted so aggressively when I first met someone? I knew I had messed up but I do not know how to control impulses whether it's gambling, cocaine,,or being a love junkie. I tried to explain that but was met with "no no no". "That is your stuff". I want to leave".

 So, I took her home and did not try to contact her for several months. The pain then was bad but bearable. I was only moderately love sick afterward.  I waited a few months and came back at her again.

I wrote her a few online letters explaining why she should give me another chance. I explained  that I recognized my defect and had worked on it and I had changed. I was no longer aggressive and overbearing. She  ignored my first few emails. Then, miraculously, she responded to a message I sent.. She said to call her.
When we spoke I insisted  that I really was a new man.because of the awareness she had instilled.. After the short phone conversation. we made a plan to go out  the next night.
                       

We had a great time as we talked, ate, drank, and got turned on to each other. She actually thanked me for staying after her. I was thrilled, overjoyed, elated. Don't forget that I have a lonely, unfulfilled life.  I've been divorced forever.  I have three  loving, caring who cannot do enough for me.  There are grandchildren and  friends and  acquaintances. I am very grateful. But I have no one to happily spend my days and nights with.. 

 After a long, intimate dinner we went out to my car  at my suggestion. We both took a hit of some good reefer and the the deep, passionate, intense kisses started coming. We were all over each other as if we were meant to be. Yes, nirvana I was sure., I have a new lease on life that has started with this wonderful person. Or so I thought.. .

But, the deal had not been consummated. In my sick mind it was not a genuine connection unless we had done the deed..  I was furiously thinking about how fast  we could  get to my apartment or to hers.

She was thinking differently however.. She said it had been a tremendous night and then said emphatically that although she would not sleep with me that night we should  make a plan to meet again within a few days. .

The implication was that we would make love soon enough but to give her a little time. But, also I should cool down and give her  some space.. Everything was still ok then. I was quietly trying to onceal my disappointment.

Then, I made the fatal error of speaking..

I said "why do you want to leave, it doesn't get any better then this"? "It's stupid to not stay together" She quickly responded "See, you are the same control freak  you were when we went out before"  "You think I am stupid because I want to leave?" "Are you out of your mind? " "I'm  stupid  because I don't want to go home with you tonight"?

No, no, I protested"." I'm not saying you are stupid. I'm just saying it's stupid to part company" "False" she said  "Listen to your words".
"I'm leaving right now."  And she did.

I emerged  into a horrible, state of immobilizing anxiety.. Two days  later it as painful as any mental beating  I have ever taken in my obsessive compulsive anxiety riddled life. I have been a walking dead man since she left. I have no appetite or interest in anything..
 She was the right one and I self destructed again.

David's Place: Dumb Donald Trump Drowning and John Kelly Is Not A...

David's Place: Dumb Donald Trump Drowning and John Kelly Is Not A...: John Kelly, Chief of Staff, is just another Trump stooge. He is almost as bad as Trump while trying to learn to  play politics. He may even ...

Dumb Donald Trump Drowning and John Kelly Is Not A Good Lifeguard

 John  Kelly, Chief of Staff, is just another Trump stooge. He is almost as bad as Trump is while trying to learn to  play politics. He may even be Trumps undoing. We can only hope..

Kelly, the babysitter-in -chief, is way out of his sandbox with his lies about the Parkland Florida massacre.. Also, the lies about Rob Porter's wife beatings. I am not comparing the two events other then illustrating Kelly's ineptness.  Kelly tried to defend and justify his lies when the press cornered him with questions.. He became angrier and angrier as the news people ate him up..He cannot handle pressure. That is why he also cannot handle Dumb Trump. So, John Kelly is also a bad babysitter.

However, Kelly is no coward. Trump is..

.He will collide with Trump because Trump will try to run over Kelly and proud John Kelly will punch back. He will end up  screwing Dumb Donald because he is not afraid of Dumb Donald Trump.. Everyone in that White House rats nest is suddenly crashing into the truth. Transparency is happening by default.

 Kelly  is just another sub-standard Trump employee. He was supposed to be the answer to getting the White House under control but now he is the problem. .

Trump should be getting a huge headache about now. With all the disasters going on in the White House Trump has to be frantically worrying about Bob Mueller coming for him with new charges like obstruction of justice. . Dumb Donald is started to get the beating he deserves. He is being pushed out into deeper and deeper water.

Dumb Donald Trump is starting to drown in his own piss..

David's Place: Dumb Donald Trump Destroying Our Country Every Day

David's Place: Dumb Donald Trump Destroying Our Country Every Day

Dumb Donald Trump Destroying Our Country Every Day

Dumb Donald Trump astounds me. I do not think he has any concept of how to think. He seems to have no ability to evaluate what will occur after he shoots his mouth off. He needs therapy, not votes..

How in the world were people stupid enough to elect this troubled child to be President of the USA?

Look at what a mess he continues to make of our country on a daily basis? Plus, he apparently put himself in Putins pocket by taking Russian money.

Dumb Donald Trump will likely be indicted when Mueller finally is ready to take him down.

I hope that happens very soon or we may not have a democracy left.

Dumb Donald is truly our biggest enemy. He has all our lives in danger. There are almost too many problems and offenses he has caused to keep track of.

Take him down Robert Mueller.
 Please.

Blogging for beginners from Max Banner

I asked a blogging expert to give me some help on improving and understanding my blog. He helped me proving that anyone has a chance to learn how to blog because I am beyond a blogging dummy!!...

I'm an old school very computer illiterate and  horribly uneducated blogger who wants to ultimately become a good blogger.and build a big audience 
                                    
I also want to figure out how this whole blogging thing works and see if I can make money at it. I like blogging but not if nobody is reading my stuff.. .

As you can see I have posted plenty of articles with next to no feedback or traffic for my efforts..

 Matt Banner sent me this very useful and valuable analysis of my blog .I am already putting his easy to understand and pertinent information and tips to use..                 .

I asked him if I could publish his letter and he agreed.. 

 I hope this helps someone else out there..

If you have thoughts or information you wish to share please send them in and there is a good chance I will publish them..

David.

Matt Banner

Feb 10, 2015

 

Reply

Hi David,

I took a quick look for you. And although I certainly did not scour every inch of your website, I do have a few thoughts for you that may help:

1) It appears your current strategy for revenue is Google AdSense. While some blogs still use these ads, they certainly do not generate much revenue - not as much as they once did. Most bloggers who want to monetize their blogging efforts focus on promoting affiliate offers, or building an audience that they can direct to an offer they are promoting later. (Review 'Content Marketing' on Google)

2) A few posts back, you made an offer to buy comments. Taking this kind of approach may come across a little desperate to some readers. I would avoid this.

3) Having a fast and reliable server to host your blog can make or break it. You’re using a free website in Blogspot which certainly has its benefits, but doesn't possess everything you need in order to grow your blog because it’s not hosted by YOU.

Check out this article here for more on whether to use a free website service like Blogspot or making a small investment in a self-hosted blog

You can also see how important your hosting company matters here:

4) What are your current strategies for promotion? It appears that many of your articles haven't seen much exposure on social media.

5) Is there a way to narrow down the focus of your topics a little bit?

These are just a few general observations. I of course don't know all the specifics of your current blogging strategy. I offer a number of guides at that you might find useful.

I certainly hope that helps.

- Matt