no goals or objectives. I'm 68 years
old and healthy other the having a condition called hydrocephalus
which is fluid on the ban. It makes you unable to walk properly,
think cognitively, or feel balance. It is terrible to live with. No
taking a walk, engaging in fruitful conversation, or enjoy normal
short term memory. In fact one of the only ways I can get any piece
of mind is to write. Writing gives some meaning and value to my life.
It is one of the only ways I have left to cope with my semblance of a
life What do I do? I'm sitting in front of the tv with no life and no
purpose. I have nowhere to go and Wed June 7, 2017 Everyone needs
validation in their life. It5 can come with a job, a wife, a family,
consuming hobbies and many other things. I do not have any of
those. I am alone in my own morbidly depressed life.I have 3
wonderful, loving grown children and 5 grandchildren That is not
enough to capture my mind for very long. I always come back to this
indescribably dismal place where I see no value in my life. I want
to live but do not know what to do with this life.
Wednesday, June 7, 2017
Sunday, January 22, 2017
Compulsive Gambler Desperate To Gamble Again After 8 Years Sober
Compulsive gambler is a 67 year old male. He has not placed a bet in 8 years. He is set up for life. But, only if he does not gamble. He is thinking about giving into the urge.
So, I have been resisting the perpetual urge to start gambling again although I have been clean and sober for over six years If I gamble my rich, trusting lover who has stuck with me will find out quickly even if I sneak it well.. Also, my kids and few close friends would immediately lose all respect for me and I would lose all trust from everyone else. I would be cutting myself off from the easiest life one could imagine.
I am covered financially by my very rich sugar momma only because I do not gamble. If I do gamble she would cut me off in a second. I would end up broke and living in the gutter. Now, I live in a penthouse and have plenty of money between driving a cab, making money from a promotional business, and getting social security. If I'm short of cash or want anything then all I have to do is call sugar momma..She never says no.
Still, the monster to gamble lives within me. I want to chuck it all an go back to the craps table, play online poker and bet ballgames. I want to eject myself from this life and make a furiously fast journey to Las Vegas or just go to one of the gambling boats thirty minutes away from my house.
The addiction to gamble has remained so powerful that it eats at me every minute of every day. It is all I want to do. I am a 67 year old male who lives in a golden torture chamber..
So, I sit here in torment. I work, hang out with friends, stay active physically, read, write. It does not matter. I am too smart and have lived the degenerate life in previous years for too long so all I need to do is play the tape of what my life will evolve to if I go back into action.. No sugar mama, no respect from my family who I have punished, no respect from my few friends and no respect for myself.
Yet, I am tempted to throw it all away.
The hardest truth is I am a horrible gambler who almost never won and manged to lose almost two million dollars.I don't even have a plan.
I just want to give in to the impulse and go gamble..
I need the action but I need a Gamblers Anonymous meeting worse.
I'mgoing to a Gamblers Anonymous meeting now.
You should too.
Good luck.
I Cannot Sneeze
I Cannot SneezeA Story by David SteinI am afflicted by an unusual condition. I am a 67 year old man who cannot complete a sneeze. There is nothing medically causing the problem. I have not sneezed in six months. I have tried every trick.
I have a weird, unusual, condition. I continually get stuck sneezes. I get the urge to sneeze. I go Ahhh but the Choo will not come. This has been happening almost everyday for about the last eight months. I do occasionally complete a sneeze. It seems I finally sneeze just about the time I am totally out of my mind from not being able to do so.
I have researched this problem for hundreds of hours. No good answers. I have discovered a very rare condition named “Asneezia” that kind of describes my problem. I am sure this condition is psychological. I have not sneezed in the last 5 weeks. I have only sneezed a total of about 5 times in the last eight months. I get the urge to but then I cannot release the sneeze. It is like an orgasm that cannot be completed. . I have asked everyone I know including various Doctors and they have no answer. Everyone tells me it is totally irrelevant whether a person ever sneezes or does not sneeze long as they do not try to stifle it. That can possibly cause infection in the ears and sinuses. That information does not console me.
This problem has me totally obsessed, uncomfortable, nervous and depressed all the time. I keep waiting for the next urge to sneeze to come. It usually does at least once a day but then I cannot fulfill the act. I get more and more depressed each time I fail to sneeze. The only research I have found about this problem being medical is with people who have had strokes. Sometimes their brainstem and medulla will not allow the sneeze reflex to work properly. But then there are usually other reflex problems like inability to swallow and yawn that accompany stroke victims. I have none of those symptoms.
This all started one day when a friend who was talking to me saw me go Ahhh.. She said “now go Choo” .I concentrated on what she said, got distracted, and lost the sneeze urge. I immediately got self conscious about sneezing and started focusing on it and obsessing about it. Ever since then my sneezing has been abnormal. I can actually feel myself stopping the reflex and aborting sneezes. The times I have sneezed in the last eight months are usually when I do not expect to. I never had sneezing problems before. In fact, I never even thought about sneezing. I do not ever remember not being able to sneeze when I wanted to. Now, sneezing is all I can think about.
Help. I am a 57 year old male in very good physical condition. My very neurotic mind is another story. I have suffered from many O.C.D related issues including severe anxiety and hypochondria. The main concern I have is to find someone out there who understands this inability to complete a sneeze problem. Also, I would like to know for sure it is psychological and will not hurt me physically.
Lately, I am thinking that the ability to sneeze normally will never return. I do occasionally complete a sneeze. It seems I sneeze just about the time I am totally out of my mind from not being able to do so. I have researched this problem for hundreds of hours. No good answers. I have found a very rare condition named“asneezia” that kind of describes my problem. I am sure this condition is psychological get the urge to but then I cannot release the sneeze. It is like an orgasm that will not climax. Everyone tells me it is totally irrelevant whether a person ever sneezes or does not sneeze as long as they do not try to stifle it. That can possibly cause infection in the ears and sinuses. That information does not console me. This problem has me totally obsessed, uncomfortable, nervous and depressed all the time. I keep waiting for the next urge to sneeze to come. It usually does at least once a day but then cannot fulfill the act. I get more and more depressed each time I fail to sneeze.
The only research I have found about this problem being medical is with people who have had strokes. Sometimes their brainstem and medulla will not allow the sneeze reflex to work properly. But then there are usually other reflex problems like inability to swallow and yawn that accompany stroke victims. I have none of those symptoms. This all started one day when a friend who was talking to me saw me go Ahhh. She said “now go Choo”. I concentrated on what she said, got distracted, and lost the sneeze urge. I immediately got self conscious about sneezing and started focusing on it and obsessing about it. Ever since then my sneezing has been abnormal. I can actually feel myself stopping the reflex and aborting sneezes. The times I have sneezed in the last eight months are usually when I do not expect to. I never had sneezing problems before. In fact, I never even thought about sneezing. I do not ever remember not being able to sneeze when I wanted to. Now, sneezing is all I can think about.
Anybody have answers? I am a 57 year old male in very good physical condition. My very neurotic mind is another story. I have suffered from many O.C.D related issues, anxiety and hypochondria. The main concern I have is to find someone out there who knows of this inability to complete a sneeze problem. Also, I would like to know if it is psychological and will not hurt me physically. Lately, I am thinking that the ability to sneeze normally will never return.
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Thursday, January 19, 2017
OCD Screenplay -Rough First Draft
A First Draft On An OCD Crisis
David on a continual mission to prove his manhood to himself so he can feel ok inside. Physical fighting is still the cornerstone. This night david and deb are out with another couple to dinner. It is while they ar engaged
David on a continual mission to prove his manhood to himself so he can feel ok inside. Physical fighting is still the cornerstone. This night david and deb are out with another couple to dinner. It is while they ar engaged
Table of people out to dinner near
davids table.They are drunk, loud and profane.
Guy-So, the fucken guy comes up to me
D-Losing appetite due to intimidation.
Feels he will have to confront this guy
D-Moves over to table. Leans over.
D-Would you guyds please hold back on
the profanity. Its embarrassing
Gut at tablet alking about his loud
friend.
Guy.
Don’t worry about it. Hes just a
little drundk. Well keep it down.
D-thank you
Loudmouth-Fuck off
D-Two short jbs to the loudmouths fat
face.
Everone at loudmouths table stands up.
Loudmouth-unfazed
Want to take it outside
D-says nothing hoping it will not go
outside.
Al-guy at davids table. Come on.Lets
get out of here.
Al-I have never seen anything like the
balls you just showed as the loudmouths drive away and david is safe.
Deb-whay did you do that?
D-they were being rude and loud
I didn’t even hear them.
Al-your boyfriend is my hero. Everyone
wants to stand up to assholes like those.
Deb-Oh
David-lets go for a drink somewhere
else.
Group leaves for another bar
Uneventful rest of night.
David goes home to his apartment alone
afte driving deb back to her parents.
David turns up the volume on his police
scanner.
Neighbor pounds on the wall indicating
to turn down radio. David feels intimidated again. Turns down police
radio. Realizes he will be uncomfortable until he makes peace with
the neighbor hwho knocked on th3e wall. He has never met that high
rise neifghbor. David tries to knock on the neighbors door the next
day to apologize. He only repeats the same behavior he has always
engaged in. he just wants to relieve the anxiety he feels from being
intimidated by the neighbor. He feels uncomfortable in his house. He
knows he will continue to feel that way until he gets the relief of
shaking hands with the neighbor or fighting him. He cannot then or
now live with the internal discomfort discomfort of the threatening
feeling he feels just living next door to this intimidating neighbor
who he has never met.
D-knocks on neighbors door-Lady-answers
door
D-im sorry about that noise the other
night
Lady- oh, that was my boyfriend. He
gets mean when his sleep is disrupted. That noise woke him. Don’t
worry about it. I’ll tell him you came by
D-could I taeel him myself that im
sorry?
Lady-No. He isn’t home. Ill tell him.
It was nothing. Forget it
D-Ok as lady shuts the door.
David lying on bed afterword.
He decides he does not want to live in
that apartment anymore. He cannot live with the anxiety. A few days
later he tells deb that they should start looking for apts. David
never turns on police radio again and keeps the tv very soft.
Same bullied feeeeling always that
started with not being able to go outside and face the bullies back
from the day that Lloyd told david to go outside and fight and david
could not. Same theme for life.
Interior stein furniture
David goes to bathroom pissing again
and again.
D-Dr. I cant stop pissing
Dr-its nothing. Just part of that
infection I I am teating you for
D-But I just keep going and going
Dr.call me back if it doesn’t stop in
a few days.
D-ok
Pissing problem lasts for several
years. David urinates an inhuman amount of times each day. It
destroys his quality of life he goes to the dr over and over. Dr
cannot find the cause.
D-Doc, you have done every test
Dr-almost all
Dwhat do you meanalmost
Dr-I have not done the single test that
would rule out any other possibilities that are physical about your
constant urination
D-whats the tet/
Dr-it’s a cystoscope where a tube is
inserted in your penis so I can see everything I have not seen in all
the other tests.
Dr-Just forget about it david. there is
nothing wrong with you
Dr-Im getting married and I need to be
right to work and to live. I cant with this continual pissing problem
Dr-you think about it
D-ok
So, as david is about to geet married
he desperately still seeks a way to once and for all prove his
manhood thru physical courage. He also trys to find the courage to
take this weel know terribly painful cystoscope test. Life is a
nighmsare of anxiety.
David at stein interior-sitting and
pondering
David cannot relieve the anxiety within
that keeps him from having any peace of mind. He is constantly
pre-occupied with the need to get into a physical confrontation that
will make him feel satisified about his manlihood. He also is pissing
continually thinking he has a disease dsapite repeated trips to the
Dr.
The wedding is in a few months and
david is in a constant state of high anxiety. He talks to no one.
David finally comes to a decision about
both issues. He will seek out another guy again and pucnch him in the
face just one on one. Like he has never done before.
David-walks ouit of stein onto street
of downtown Chicago. He decides to bump into a tough looking
character on a main downtown street and when the guy reacts angrily
david will punch him in the face. David will do this among lots of
people where the fight is sure to be broken up quickly.
David exterior-walking on state st
David looks oup. Coming toward him is
of all l the people in the world his old time nemesis and bully
dennis oloiff. David recognizes nhim even though he has not seeen him
for about 10 years
D-To dennis approaching the other way.
D-Hey
Oliff-Recognizing david-Hey
David remembers feeling that if he did
not act now then his life would be over. This was meant to be.It was
a scene like in the twilight zone
Dennis starts to pass him and david
garners all the courage and will he can. He lashed out and punches
dennis in the mouth. Dennis goes down on the ground rom the half
hearted blow. David jumps on top of him with a knww in the chest.
Dennis holds his hand s in front of his face defensively trembling
while awaiting the next blow.. David lets him up.
Oliff-Why did you hit me?
David-I don’t know. It was like I was
in a dram and we were back in high school and you were pushing me
around.
Olifff-that was over 10 yaears ago.
Were you just let out of a mental institution.
D-No
Dennis-Lets just have a cup of coffee
david says point;ing to a restaurant a few feet away
Dennis-Looking at david with fear but
too scared to say no.
Ok
The two sit down and talk at a tble.
David does not want dennis to think he needs to do something to
protect himself from david. That would create another obsession
D-Dennis. This is all done. I never
want to deal with you again. This was all about me
Dennis-is it out of your head now?
Yes-im sorry
Dennis-Getting ip. Get some help stein.
This is really abnormal.
D-you did a lot of damage
They both leave going different
directions.
David-exterior-dancing down the street.
He thinks that he is now finally done
proving his version of manhood and courage to himself
Interior-back at steins
D-Lloyd, you ll never believe this
L-what/
There wasa a guy who shoved me aroung
in high school
L-So?
I just was walking down s5tate street
and saw h;im.
L-I couldn’t resist the urge to get
even with him. I punched him right in the mouth
L-distracted-not really caring
L-Good. Sounds like he had it coming
David at home at moters house ecstatic
David-to old best friend Mike.
D-So, Im walking down the street and I
see oliff. Remember him
M-whatever happened to him
D-i don’t know but I do know what I
did when I saw him.
M-what
I punched him in the face
M-Why
D_Because of all the times he made shit
out of me
M-What did he do
D-he went down like a sack of shit
trembling and hoping I wouldn’t keep hitting him
M-what'd you do?
D-I let him up
M-then what
D-i convinced him to go for a cup of
coffee so I could explain myself
M-explain that youre crazy
D-yeah
M-i cant believe it
D-i did it
M-congatulations.
David on the phone
Dr-I want t have that cystoscoe test
D-you know I don’t recommend it. Its
painful; and unnecessary.
D-but you said it’s the one
conclusive test you can do that will tell you the real story about
Dr-yes. It would
D-Set it up pleas3e
Dr-OK
Interior at hospital
Dr at davids bed before the test
D-remember-plento of antisthetic and no
catheter afte the test
Dr-We always use a catheter so that
afterwardthe pain will be decreased.
D-how much pain?
Dr-A lot for a few days
D-I don’t want a catheter stuck up
there
Dr-suit yourself. Ill see you aftger I
finish
Dr-you can still change your mind right
now before we wheel you down
D-No- do it
David interior afteet test
Dr standing over his bed
David-there was nothing wrong. You are
100% ok in your kidneys and bladder.
D-Groggy-Good
Dr-I check back with you tomorrow.
D-thankd doc
Interior of david getting out of bed to
urinate
D-sitting on toilet
Urine filled with blood comes out
D-Crying out in pain. Excruciating.
Lasts for several days where david lays in hospital be d dreding each
new urge to urinate.
Interior-Dr
David-Your ok im discharging you now.
Is the pain when urinating over the sensitive sking one
D-pretty much
Dr-OK Oh just one thing
D-What
Dr-I noticed something on your chest
xray. Oh never mind. Im sure its nothing
D-What?
Dr. Well, I noticed what im sure was a
little piece of dudt on the xray film. When
D-ok Dr.
Exterior
David walks home from hospital to
mothers house
Mom-Oh honey. Im so glad that’s over
with
D-yeah. But I have another problem
Mom-What honey
D-he needs to do another chest xray to
make sure about something. He said it was nothing
David walking into steins
Feeling he cannot breathe. Obsessed
with his chest. Driving around worried to death about chest xray.
Hyperventilates for several days.
David on phone to DR.
D-Doc-I want to get that chest xray
done again.
Dr-Ok come by and see miss louis
anytime
D-Ok
Miss louis does chest xray
Phone call for david at home
Dr-Hi david. Your chest xray id fine.
There was just some dust on the old one take care.
Hyperventiallting goes away. David is
fine for a day or so
Tuesday, November 22, 2016
Google Adsense :: Pay Me The Money You Owe
Since you make it nearly impossible to contact you then I will go public.
I am owed over $80.00 from Google for posts I have made to my blog. But, I cannot get paid because the sum I am owed is under $100.00.
However I, like many others am stuck. I no longer post very much to my blog and cannot figure out a way to get the $80+ Google owes me.
Can anyone help.?
Thank you.
David
I am owed over $80.00 from Google for posts I have made to my blog. But, I cannot get paid because the sum I am owed is under $100.00.
However I, like many others am stuck. I no longer post very much to my blog and cannot figure out a way to get the $80+ Google owes me.
Can anyone help.?
Thank you.
David
Tuesday, November 8, 2016
Trump Will Be A Bust Out Again
Hopefully, Donald J. Trump, the Republican presidential nominee will lose most of his following and most of his money after he loses the election today. Never has a human being shown himself to be more despicable and deplorable then Trump.
This cheap, hustler got in all our pants with his carnival barking rhetoric. He came into the campaign as a game and then got into it seriously.. He knows nothing about politics but he is a great spontaneous speaker terrific at babbling about nothing. To the fools out there that believe in him they had some fun following him for over a year.
If Trump feels like he has a future in politics or even in business he has a cruel lesson coming. Since he truly is an idiot who no one will listen to after he loses this election he will have no one paying attention to him. Bannon and that alt right group will throw him away because he will have outlived his usefulness.
So, ironically, if the Republicans had run a halfway descent candidate they would have won the White House easily.
My dream is that Trump goes broke and cannot get any business.
How sweet to watch him go down.
This cheap, hustler got in all our pants with his carnival barking rhetoric. He came into the campaign as a game and then got into it seriously.. He knows nothing about politics but he is a great spontaneous speaker terrific at babbling about nothing. To the fools out there that believe in him they had some fun following him for over a year.
If Trump feels like he has a future in politics or even in business he has a cruel lesson coming. Since he truly is an idiot who no one will listen to after he loses this election he will have no one paying attention to him. Bannon and that alt right group will throw him away because he will have outlived his usefulness.
So, ironically, if the Republicans had run a halfway descent candidate they would have won the White House easily.
My dream is that Trump goes broke and cannot get any business.
How sweet to watch him go down.
Monday, September 12, 2016
Online Lovers Nightmare
I saw this beautiful black haired woman on an online dating site.
She was about 45, tall, and classy looking. Her profile said she lived in a
fancy suburb outside Chicago ,
and that she was divorced and had no kids living at home. Perfect person for
me, an inveterate professional online dating love junkie 55 years old, good
looking, smooth talking and a great hustler of women.
I sent her an email
on match.com which is the online site. She saw my profile and which showed my
pictures, age, religion, income, likes and dislikes. All the stuff that is
supposed to matter. It may to some. Pictures and not having kids living at home
and a convenient location are the only things that matter to me.
She sent her phone number and we chatted briefly and then
she told me that she was going to be at this bar a few nights later to meet a
girl friend. I asked if I could meet her before her girlfriend got there and
she said yes. But, I would only have about 20 minutes to impress her because
when her girlfriend showed up I had to leave. What a great bitch!!
I was in love immediately. I was as excited as I got dressed
in my only Calvin Klein jeans and only polo shirt. See, I am an online fraud. A
guy who has nothing because of gambling and bad investments but who loves to
chase women and act like I’m solid personally and financially when in fact I am
a mess. The, maybe I find a sugar mama here and there.
I sped to this restaurant in the North Shore
and there she was sitting at the bar looking even better then her pictures. I introduced myself and she initially
appeared, from her body language, not be attracted me. She said good try but we
were not a match. Then, her girlfriend came and sat down. Meanwhile, I was
struggling to find a way to get Trudy captivated and couldn’t. Her girlfriend
however saved me by starting to talk to some guy and the pressure to for me to
leave abated.
I kept working Trudy psychologically to seduce her mind and
body until I could feel her really look at me as I was telling another story.
Her eyes twinkled. I knew she was interested. I asked if I still had to go send
she said no, not now because her girlfriend was intensely engaged in a conversation with the guy. So, I just keep
on talking to Trudy and pretty soon she stopped looking at her girlfriend and
other people and got close to my face and only saw me.
An hour later I asked her if she wanted to take a ride and
go to another bar. She said yes after checking with her girlfriend who did not
care. She was still involved with this guy. When we got into my car I tried to
kiss Trudy and she said no. Easy boy. We went to another bar and stayed till 4
in the morning. I then dropped her off at her car and we agreed to see each other
soon. I was totally in love. My love junkie addiction was triggered along with
my survival instincts. I had very little money. But, I was walking on the
clouds.
I called the next day and we talked for hours. We made plans
to go out together for dinner. We went out a few more times with me continually
trying to get her turned on but the most that ever happened was hot kissing. I
could not afford her. After about a month she finally invited me in her house
and we sat by the fire place and made out more only this time we got into
petting. Well, we petted and petted for weeks until we had done everything
imaginable . We would have some wine, smoke reefer, and swallow each other up
endlessly with necking and petting.
But, the bedroom was always waiting upstairs and she would
never take me there. Finally, in the midst of being in the throws of passion on
the couch she stood up, pointed her finger at the stairs leading to the
bedroom. We jumped in bed and fucked all night and all the next day. She came
and came and came. She was totally selfish and cared nothing about my
satisfaction. She just wanted me to do her right. I did. She said I was the greatest
lover in her long history and maybe in the world. This went on for months.
She never let me stay over, never offered any food, and was
completely critical of everything I did besides how I made love to her, She
never shared any intimacies with me. She was a plain and simple spoiled,
sarcastic bitch. But, it was fun getting to her sexually.
She called me the million dollar baby because she thought I
was such a long shot to ever end up being her lover we met. She continually
questioned out loud how she could be as turned on to someone as not classy,
uneducated, and as unsuccessful as me because I was not a professional like she
was used to being with..
But, she loved the way I got her off and we literally spent
the whole fall season in her bed eventually not even going out. Just wine,
dope, and her bed and then me getting kicked out every time afterward. No kindness
from her, no appreciation, no invitations for anything more then banging her.
Somehow, it all felt perfect though. I loved the torture of not getting all of
her when I still thought I wanted to.
So, we finally decided to leave the confines of her bedroom
to go somewhere else to fuck. We set up a trip to a small town bed and
breakfast. On the way there I happened to disagree with her about some minor issue.
The bitch would not talk to me for 2 hours until we got to the bed and
breakfast. She threw a total tantrum of silence.. Finally, we got to the bed
and breakfast and went out to dinner. We
were still hardly talking.
When the check came I asked her to pay for half the bill
since she had belligerently agreed to pay for half the vacation. She literally
threw a couple hundred dollar bills at me as if I were garbage. I said thank
you very gently to torment her. She wanted to fight.. Suddenly, I saw only the poison
behind her great looks. We came back to the inn and had angry sex and went to
sleep.
The next morning she wanted to go for a ride in the sand
dunes right near by. I thought it was a bad idea because it was storming and
freezing and we could get stuck on the beach. She demanded we go anyway. Sure
enough, there we were stuck on a beach trapped in a giant sand dune with no
help around. The more I tried to get out of the dune the deeper I got stuck.
There were a few four wheelers driving around because it was treacherous on
this beach. Hardly anyone was out
Finally, a ranger came by and tried to help. Trudy said that
I would never be able to follow his directions as he chained his vehicle to my
car to pull me out. Trudy demanded I let her drive. At the same time she was yelling
at me the ranger was trying to tell me what to do. So, as that nasty head of
hers was babbling in my one ear about how stupid I was to get stuck the ranger
was yelling instructions from his vehicle on how to get out.
. I finally screamed loudly at Trudy to shut the fuck up
calling her a fucking bitch. She was shocked as if no one had ever spoken to
her that way. We finally got out of the dune. As soon as we hit the road Trudy
jumped out of the car which was literally in the middle of nowhere. Some other
guys were driving by and she stuck her thumb out to hitch a ride as I followed.
She got in their truck and I chased them. I really did not care about this
bitch anymore but I could not just leave her in that truck and drive away. What
if something happened? We were a hundred
miles from Chicago
in a torrential storm. I was actually afraid for her.
Finally, I pulled up beside the guys driving her and
explained that she was crazy and they had to get her out of their truck.. They
did and after twenty minutes of her walking her fancy ass down the road she was
too frozen to continue and got back in my car. Finally, she broke the silence
with a rant about how she could have gotten us out of the dune without any
help.
She screamed on and on. I just wanted to get her back home
again because now she was nothing more then a lunatic out of an Alfred
Hitchcock movie. But we were two hours from home. I still had not said a word
back to her.
Suddenly, she violently shook her finger at my face and
asked why I had screamed up, you fucking bitch at her. I said because she was a
fucking bitch.
She then punched me in the side of the face as I was
driving. I knew our fate was sealed then for sure and beyond redemption.
Someone who resorts to violence will do it again and again.
I said not a word afterward. She had not hurt me. I finally
got her within a few blocks of her house. She started to talk to me again. To
try and bail out. She said about herself that maybe I need to get some help.
Will I forgive her?
I still said nothing as I finally pulled into her driveway.
She called me several times afterward and I would not talk to her giving her no
reinforcement for stalking me or other craziness I realized she was capable of.
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