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Same old OCD torment again.. This urge to confront a guy I play softball with is  overwhelming.. I know that nothing good could come of it. I do not have anything against this guy.. But, I feel I must act out again to prove some kind of distorted courage to myself..  I am all overwhelmed and anxiety ridden about seeing him on the field tomorrow. It feels like there can be no relief unless I confront him about a perceived issue that he already apologized for. It is the same lifelong urge that makes an ocd person  check the lights or the stove or do a million other things to feel relief.. Only mine can get dangerous because I need apologies or physical  contact to get relief.. Usually, that only makes the  OCD . urge more complicated.  Fear of the feeling of anxiety eating away is my issue. So, I get  a reckless idea as to how to relieve it. Many times the solutions are dangerous. I have ended up in the hospital, in jail, in mental wards, an...

Match.com sucks. They cancelled my subscription by accident. I had argued about  app $8.00 owed  to me and unpaid by match.com as they had promised. I have been a member almost since they opened.They are a bunch of pigs and Zina in customer service would rather argue then do business. Also, they are not keeping up with their competition. Phony pictures and profiles fill the match site. Their automatic renewal policy is a rip off as are their rates.They do not admit to the FREE memberships offered. The site allows people who are not online to appear as if they are. They never cancel memberships even when people have dropped out and do not pay match anymore. Try other services.  Match is composed of bad management.. .

David's Place: Paying Peanuts For Bloggers From Google AdSense : AdSense is a mystery to me. Blogger is the free blogging site that Google owns and operates very efficiently. AdSense, owned by Google, keep...

AdSense is a mystery to me. Blogger is the free blogging site that Google owns and operates very efficiently. AdSense, owned by Google, keeps track of what bloggers earn. AdSense is mutually beneficial for both Google and bloggers who are paid by the amount of times their blog is clicked on.. Ad revenues are generated toward Google advertisers whose ads are placed on the same pages along with the blogs. So, it's a quid pro quo more or less. Less for any bloggers except the best and most popular who are a special few who work endlessly and are very talented. and get a lot of traffic. I have been owed $85.24 from Google AdSense for several years. Today, I again got interested in figuring out how to get paid.  I know that you must earn $100.00 to formally be entitled to receive a payment from Google AdSense.  However, I am sure Google pays small sums for things they need even when the amount  is less then $100.00. They need bloggers.. There is lots of competition for...

Going into the hospital on Wednesday July 19. The Dr.  will put a shunt in my head to funnel the water on my brain into the shunt and drain it harmlessly into my stomach. That will hopefully correct and relieve the weakness and inability to use my legs without a cane, and hopefully the shunt will restore my short term memory which is all but gone. This condition I have is called Hydrocephalus. Most people do not know about it because it only effects a very small segment of people. There is a wonderful place called the Hydrocephalus Association at 4340 East West Highway  Suite 905 in Bethesda MD 20814. They perform a great service with literature, videos, personal contacts, and recommendations.. There are no charges.  Just help. The number is 301-202-3811 and the email is info@HYDROASSoc.org Hope this help someone..

I have not blogged very much in recent months. I have an excuse. I have been sick and furthermore unable to find a Dr. to diagnose the condition, I have had a continual problem walking, and remembering easy short term memory events. I went from Dr. to Dr. and finally a found a neurologist who made a diagnosis of a condition called Hydrocephalus which is water on the brain. This water drips down into the spine and causes trouble walking, and thinking. That is my problem..It takes a long time to emerge but it is usually curable. After spending a huge part of my life for the last few years as the disease progressed I became more and more desperate to, find a DR. who could treat this disease which is treatable I have spent so much of my  time researching I feel like an expert on Hydrocephalus. I found a Dr, a neurosurgeon who will put cut my skull open and insert a shunt in my brain to drain the damaging fluid from and cut it off from travelling to my spine where it does all the dama...

no goals or objectives. I'm 68 years old and healthy other the having a condition called hydrocephalus which is fluid on the ban. It makes you unable to walk properly, think cognitively, or feel balance. It is terrible to live with. No taking a walk, engaging in fruitful conversation, or enjoy normal short term memory. In fact one of the only ways I can get any piece of mind is to write. Writing gives some meaning and value to  my life. It is one of the only ways I have left to cope with my semblance of a life What do I do? I'm sitting in front of the tv with no life and no purpose. I have nowhere to go and Wed June 7, 2017  Everyone needs validation in their life. It5 can come with a job, a wife, a family, consuming hobbies and many other things. I do not have any of those. I am alone in my own morbidly depressed life.I have 3 wonderful, loving grown children and 5 grandchildren That is not enough to capture my mind for very long. I always come back to this indescribably d...

  Compulsive gambler is a 67 year old male. He has not placed a bet in  8 years. He is set up for life. But, only if he does not gamble. He is thinking about giving into the urge.  So, I have been resisting the perpetual urge to start gambling again although I have been clean and sober for over six years  If I gamble my rich, trusting lover who has stuck with me will find out quickly even if I sneak it well.. Also, my kids and few close friends would immediately lose all respect for me and I would lose all trust from everyone else. I would be cutting myself off from the easiest life one could imagine.  I am covered financially by my very rich sugar momma only because I do not gamble. If I do gamble she would cut me off in a second. I would end up broke and living in the gutter. Now, I live in a penthouse and have plenty of money between driving a cab, making money from a promotional business, and getting social security. If I'm short of cash or want...

I Cannot Sneeze A Story by   David Stein   I am afflicted by an unusual condition. I am a 67 year old man who cannot complete a sneeze. There is nothing medically causing the problem. I have not sneezed in six months. I have tried every trick.   I have a weird, unusual, condition. I continually get stuck sneezes. I get the urge to sneeze. I go Ahhh but the Choo will not come. This has been happening almost everyday for about the last eight months. I do occasionally complete a sneeze. It seems I finally sneeze just about the time I am totally out of my mind from not being able to do so.   I have researched this problem for hundreds of hours. No good answers. I have discovered a very rare condition named “Asneezia” that kind of describes my problem. I am sure this condition is psychological. I have not sneezed in the last 5 weeks. I have only sneezed a total of about 5 times in the last eight months. I get the urge to but then I cannot release the sne...

                                                     A First Draft On  An OCD Crisis David on a continual mission to prove his manhood to himself so he can feel ok inside. Physical fighting is still the cornerstone. This night david and deb are out with another couple to dinner. It is while they ar engaged Table of people out to dinner near davids table.They are drunk, loud and profane. Guy-So, the fucken guy comes up to me D-Losing appetite due to intimidation. Feels he will have to confront this guy D-Moves over to table. Leans over. D-Would you guyds please hold back on the profanity. Its embarrassing Gut at tablet alking about his loud friend. Guy. Don’t worry about it. Hes just a little drund...