DAVID'S PLACE:

 Should I Go Back To Driving A Cab or Is There A Writer In me? David interior of Lucy’s apartment Arrives at Lucy’s The Match Fade In David sits at his computer scanning the online dating site like a trained hunter. He sees this tall, seductive but funky looking woman of about 50 and looking very indifferent. Kinda smug. Posing like a hotter version of  Faye Dunaway in Bonnie and Clyde ” but so very obviously intelligent and also streety.  Tall too. Great looking body.  David wonders out loud “Is she hot or not”? His 62 year old trained eyes coupled with years of dating experience do not tell him a story. She could be a good one but probably isn’t” She’s probably not worth trying to meet he decides. Then, he goes back to look at her and reads her profile her again. Then again he reconsiders. “Divorced, self employed, no kids living at home” her profile states. She seems so unaffected, uncaring about whether she gets any attention or not, as if she ...

So I am sitting at my desk in my condo. I am still torn between betraying my lover/mother who takes care of me in every way. Emotionally, financially, and spiritually. Except, she is married to someone else and is out of town most of the winter. It's better when she is in town and keeps me out of this clinical depression. So, I have been resisting the perpetual urge to start gambling again although I have been clean and sober for over six years If I gamble she will find out quickly even if I sneak it. Also, my kids and few close friends would immediately lose all respect for me and lose all trust. I would be cutting myself off from the easiest life one could imagine. I have not gambled in over six years. I am covered financially by my very rich sugar momma only because I do not gamble. If I do gamble she would cut me off in a second. I would end up broke and living in the gutter. Now, I live in a penthouse and have plenty of money between driving a cab, making money from a prom...