Showing posts with label courage. Show all posts
Showing posts with label courage. Show all posts

Thursday, December 12, 2019

TRUMP AND HIS SENATORS GIVE US A GOLDEN SHOWER

I am sick, enraged, and mystified that a rotten piece of scum, a moronic, ignoramus of a U.S. President can act in defiance of the constitution and continue to retain the support of a bunch of spineless Republican senate leaders.  

The senators are a group of pure assholes who are willing to protect and defend Trump from impeachment and possibly jail in order to keep their jobs and their power. 

They do not care about Trumps misdeeds, criminal violations, abuses of power, or any other betrayals of his oath of office he has  committed. They just hold his ass up with both hands and keep their faces buried in it defending him each day knowing he is a totally corrupt president.

How in the world can absolutely clear issues of black and white, right and wrong. good and bad, logic and idiocy be debated by supposedly intelligent individuals? Trump got caught red handed several times with his hand in the cookie jar. End of story. Period. He's got to go.

Who do we have running this country? Idiots? Buffoons? Intellectually disabled goofs? Worse? 
These are not leaders. They will not even acknowledge that Trump is guilty of the offenses claimed against him. They know better.

The indisputable proof that Trump has violated his oath of office again and again and that he should be impeached has been legally proven and is apparent to anyone with a working brain. 

Yet, not one major Republican has yet stood up and admitted the truth about this fake, stupid and scummy president. Rise, one of you gutless wonders. You will become a worthwhile human being at least for a little while. 

How do Trumps defenders in the senate look at themselves in the mirror and not puke up their guts at their cowardliness? How can not at least one brave senator unload their repulsion at themselves and their colleagues for defending pathetic, mentally ill Trump and explode in anger and frustration? When did wrongly defending a rotten corrupt president become right? 

Not one Trump senator has a set of balls bigger then a parakeets balls as my old friend Merrill used to say about gutless people. These ass kissing, blood sucking, pathetic cowards know exactly how wrong they are to protect a guy who is all but an official dictator and Russian employee. But, they selfishly stick with him for purely personal reasons.

What the fuck is going on in this country when so many people have lost the courage and will to say "No, this is wrong? Take this job and shove it Trump, I am done saving your sorry ass". 

A few very brave non-partisan officials have testified courageously and honorably and spoken the unfortunate truth about Trumps misdeeds. They have not moved the popularity needle much. Yet. 

Hats off to them though. They may still have saved this country from Trump and his attack dogs like Kevin McCarthy, Matt Gaetz, Jim Jordan, Doug Collins, and Mitch McConnell to name a few. The game is not over. Trump did not get off. But, he must be stopped.

However, mother justice is not happening so far. Trumps pawns keep their snouts up his posterior. The Republican senators live in the depths of Trumps bowels each day. They seem immune to his stink. 

They tell us Trump is really undeserving of being impeached. They will soon refuse to convict him when the impeachment goes to the senate. Trump and his Republican senators give every American the infamous golden shower each time they speak in behalf of Dumb Donald.

Is this America? Do Trump and his devotees have any limits as to the amount of shit that they can shovel in our faces with their lying words without losing all credibility?

 So far the public says they are safe. But, things can change fast with public opinion. Trumps gang thinks they can piss on us all the way through the 2020 election. 
They will fail. Tyranny always fails.

Trump is the same dishonest, unethical dog he has been his entire spoiled, enabled, unaccountable, privileged life. He is a stinking, rotten, uncontrollable brat who should have never been given a dollar of his daddy's fortune let alone keys to the White House. 

Trump is a gang boss, a cult leader. He is just a common hustler and con man. He is not a human being let alone a man of honor and distinction like Americas leaders should be. He has no heart and soul. He is an embarrassment to our country and to the world. He has shamed us all. He will continue to if not stopped.  

Would anyone let their children behave like President Donald J. Trump without smacking their faces and cutting off their privileges? Or worse?

Man up one of you gutless wonders who is defending Trump in these impeachment hearings. Get off your chair one of you disgusting, cowardly well educated, rich, and fully employable Trump allies and say 
" Fuck you Donald, you dumb son of a bitch  Take this job and shove it up your ass. You are guilty of all the accusations against you.
I quit."

Let's take America back.

Monday, November 25, 2019

TRUMP IS A LOSER WHO WILL SELF DESTRUCT SOON

It is reprehensible. It is a national disgrace that despite clear and indisputable evidence a small group of Senate Republicans holds the country hostage while Trump rampages on without regard for the consequences. 

 And why should Trump worry about his conduct? 

His supporters have already made it clear that whatever he says and does is irrelevant no matter how treacherously he acts. He is even getting anointed by some as being sent from some extra terrestrial location and placed here to guide our nation. 

It is eternally confounding to me as to whether some really believe 
the false garbage he spews out continually or they are just acting like they believe in him for power, money, or whatever their purpose is. 

People in this country are not ignorant. They are smart but get taken by con men because they want to believe. Trump knows that much. So does every other con man.

He seems disinterested as to what problems his behavior causes. He realizes that his base of dedicated followers enable him to roam the world and be obnoxious, uncivil, immoral, and just plain stupid. 

He actually is a just a good old fashioned dunce in the truest sense of the word. He does not read, he appears incapable of thinking very deeply, evaluating, or acting responsibly let alone thinking in three dimensional terms. 

He is too psychologically short circuited to act like an adult. So, he acts like a spoiled, impudent teen age punk. 

What is going on here? Are we now a nation without the courage to stand up to evil? Are we scared of a nitwit like Trump?

 No.We are not. This whole thing with Trump getting over on the whole nation inhabited by the best, nicest, sensitive, toughest, smartest, daring and heroic people on the planet is just temporary. 

 We have not gotten permanently hypnotized and brainwashed by a simpleton named Donald J.Trump. It is not possible. It is a mistake that has not gotten corrected. 

There will be a national awakening of consciousness and sensibility. Trump will either be brought down by the citizens or blow himself up politically with his ignorance and grandeur. 
Either way, he is a loser and losers are called losers for a reason.
They lose.  

Saturday, March 9, 2013

OCD: Not Acting Out Is The Objective

I was working at a pizza place in Chicago a while back. There were many drivers working there and they represented a wide variety of individuals.  The ages ranged from 21 to 65 and I was one of the older ones who were generally not the objects of attention. However, being old did not give me any exemption from the OCD demons that have plagued me.

 I overheard a remark this guy made about Jewish people. I confronted him immediately.and he did not want to apologize and I would not let it go. I quit working there. I eventually came back there to confront him again. I ended up swinging at him. He threw me to the ground telling me to stop swinging or he would hurt me. I left but still could not get closure.

It ended a few months later with me begging him for forgiveness after I finally gathered the courage to go back there again to apologize. It was not about the Jewish remark anymore. It never had been. It was about how living with the remark had made me into an anxiety ridden mess. Like someone who is not allowed to check the door or stove again and again feels the urge ala Jack Nicholson in "As Good As It Gets".Same thing.

 I always think I have to confront anyone who has bullied me in some way. The bullying comes sometimes with another person making a comment to me or to someone else that offends me.
 It could be a remark about the Jewish religion. That's been a big area.

It's not that I am really sensitive when someone says something offensive about Jewish people. It's that I cannot feel comfortable about being around that person until I have confronted them about what they said.
 I usually respond but not in the perfect way I wanted to. Then, I start thinking about the what ifs.

 I become overwhelmed by the perceived insult or comment and cannot think about anything else until I get closure. I get nervous, jittery, anxious, scared about consequences and all the feelings one feels when they decide they will confront the schoolyard bully and wait fearfully to do it.

Relief usually comes from a successful confrontation. Successful means the person who made the remark, when challenged, apologizes or somehow shows that they  meant no insult. If that person gets angry at being challenged about a remark they are being called out on and they refuse to give me relief then the situation escalates. 

I will go back to that person again and again if I can. Or, I will become possessed by the remark replaying it over and over. It will occupy my mind for days, weeks, months, or even years.  It will take many forms until I actually forget about the original cause of my anxiety. So, I, am constantly the victim of my own mind.

That has been  happening forever. The irony is that it is usually not really about what I heard. It is about my sick mind staying tortured until I can get rid of the obsession to respond. I have the need to prove to myself again that I have the courage to stand up for myself or fight back. The courage I lacked and still lack in many instances.

 I was bullied when I was younger and tried for all these years to get over it. That's what my whole thing is about.  It's about not feeling safe and comfortable  until I confront the bully no matter what form the bully is in Just like being scared to stand up for myself when I was little and was afraid or unwilling to hit back.

It is always connected to a person I want to overcome the feeling of being intimidated by. It could start with a barking dog but it is always about confronting the owner. If the owner is a nice little lady I stop caring about the barking. The underlying factor is that I'm  looking for reassurance that I am not being bullied.

It has happened where a situation started with a remark a person made and it ends up with me apologizing to them, after me being unsuccessful in getting an apology. I desperately want the relief of getting closure with that person.  I cannot get my mind back until I do.

I have suffered brutally from this OCD condition in other areas.  Needing to explain myself when I think I have said or done something wrong. I slightly brushed against someones car a while back doing no damage. I could not stop going back to the car over and over checking it again. Then, even after a few weeks I hesitated going down the street where it was parked because it would trigger OCD feelings.

Fortunately, relief came by just accepting the feeling of living with the urge to check that car again knowing it was my OCD causing it. That was an accomplishment. Resolving that car thing from within was terrific. The real underlying fear was a confrontation with the owner of the car. I knew that but it is so hard not to act when the urge is there.

 I continually try to work OCD urges out in my mind and keep vowing to only do the work internally rather then acting out. It is hard. Even after lots of cognitive and talk therapy, SSRI medicines, I suffer terribly. Each day is filled with anxiety. but, not acting is a big achievement. Not acting out is the objective to OCD.

 It takes a lot of work but I'm way better now then in the past. The  real solution to relieving OCD urges is when you need only your own understanding to resolve them. That's real success.

But, it has not always worked that way. I have gotten into terrible trouble engaging people for no reason. The biggest victim has been myself. Most of my life has been tormented every day by some OCD situation preventing me from living.

So, the real bully is my inability to confront the OCD that lives within me and not act on it