David on a continual mission to prove his manhood to himself so he can feel ok inside. Physical fighting is still the cornerstone. This night david and deb are out with another couple to dinner. It is while they ar engaged
Table of people out to dinner near
davids table.They are drunk, loud and profane.
Guy-So, the fucken guy comes up to me
D-Losing appetite due to intimidation.
Feels he will have to confront this guy
D-Moves over to table. Leans over.
D-Would you guyds please hold back on
the profanity. Its embarrassing
Gut at tablet alking about his loud
friend.
Guy.
Don’t worry about it. Hes just a
little drundk. Well keep it down.
D-thank you
Loudmouth-Fuck off
D-Two short jbs to the loudmouths fat
face.
Everone at loudmouths table stands up.
Loudmouth-unfazed
Want to take it outside
D-says nothing hoping it will not go
outside.
Al-guy at davids table. Come on.Lets
get out of here.
Al-I have never seen anything like the
balls you just showed as the loudmouths drive away and david is safe.
Deb-whay did you do that?
D-they were being rude and loud
I didn’t even hear them.
Al-your boyfriend is my hero. Everyone
wants to stand up to assholes like those.
Deb-Oh
David-lets go for a drink somewhere
else.
Group leaves for another bar
Uneventful rest of night.
David goes home to his apartment alone
afte driving deb back to her parents.
David turns up the volume on his police
scanner.
Neighbor pounds on the wall indicating
to turn down radio. David feels intimidated again. Turns down police
radio. Realizes he will be uncomfortable until he makes peace with
the neighbor hwho knocked on th3e wall. He has never met that high
rise neifghbor. David tries to knock on the neighbors door the next
day to apologize. He only repeats the same behavior he has always
engaged in. he just wants to relieve the anxiety he feels from being
intimidated by the neighbor. He feels uncomfortable in his house. He
knows he will continue to feel that way until he gets the relief of
shaking hands with the neighbor or fighting him. He cannot then or
now live with the internal discomfort discomfort of the threatening
feeling he feels just living next door to this intimidating neighbor
who he has never met.
D-knocks on neighbors door-Lady-answers
door
D-im sorry about that noise the other
night
Lady- oh, that was my boyfriend. He
gets mean when his sleep is disrupted. That noise woke him. Don’t
worry about it. I’ll tell him you came by
D-could I taeel him myself that im
sorry?
Lady-No. He isn’t home. Ill tell him.
It was nothing. Forget it
D-Ok as lady shuts the door.
David lying on bed afterword.
He decides he does not want to live in
that apartment anymore. He cannot live with the anxiety. A few days
later he tells deb that they should start looking for apts. David
never turns on police radio again and keeps the tv very soft.
Same bullied feeeeling always that
started with not being able to go outside and face the bullies back
from the day that Lloyd told david to go outside and fight and david
could not. Same theme for life.
Interior stein furniture
David goes to bathroom pissing again
and again.
D-Dr. I cant stop pissing
Dr-its nothing. Just part of that
infection I I am teating you for
D-But I just keep going and going
Dr.call me back if it doesn’t stop in
a few days.
D-ok
Pissing problem lasts for several
years. David urinates an inhuman amount of times each day. It
destroys his quality of life he goes to the dr over and over. Dr
cannot find the cause.
D-Doc, you have done every test
Dr-almost all
Dwhat do you meanalmost
Dr-I have not done the single test that
would rule out any other possibilities that are physical about your
constant urination
D-whats the tet/
Dr-it’s a cystoscope where a tube is
inserted in your penis so I can see everything I have not seen in all
the other tests.
Dr-Just forget about it david. there is
nothing wrong with you
Dr-Im getting married and I need to be
right to work and to live. I cant with this continual pissing problem
Dr-you think about it
D-ok
So, as david is about to geet married
he desperately still seeks a way to once and for all prove his
manhood thru physical courage. He also trys to find the courage to
take this weel know terribly painful cystoscope test. Life is a
nighmsare of anxiety.
David at stein interior-sitting and
pondering
David cannot relieve the anxiety within
that keeps him from having any peace of mind. He is constantly
pre-occupied with the need to get into a physical confrontation that
will make him feel satisified about his manlihood. He also is pissing
continually thinking he has a disease dsapite repeated trips to the
Dr.
The wedding is in a few months and
david is in a constant state of high anxiety. He talks to no one.
David finally comes to a decision about
both issues. He will seek out another guy again and pucnch him in the
face just one on one. Like he has never done before.
David-walks ouit of stein onto street
of downtown Chicago. He decides to bump into a tough looking
character on a main downtown street and when the guy reacts angrily
david will punch him in the face. David will do this among lots of
people where the fight is sure to be broken up quickly.
David exterior-walking on state st
David looks oup. Coming toward him is
of all l the people in the world his old time nemesis and bully
dennis oloiff. David recognizes nhim even though he has not seeen him
for about 10 years
D-To dennis approaching the other way.
D-Hey
Oliff-Recognizing david-Hey
David remembers feeling that if he did
not act now then his life would be over. This was meant to be.It was
a scene like in the twilight zone
Dennis starts to pass him and david
garners all the courage and will he can. He lashed out and punches
dennis in the mouth. Dennis goes down on the ground rom the half
hearted blow. David jumps on top of him with a knww in the chest.
Dennis holds his hand s in front of his face defensively trembling
while awaiting the next blow.. David lets him up.
Oliff-Why did you hit me?
David-I don’t know. It was like I was
in a dram and we were back in high school and you were pushing me
around.
Olifff-that was over 10 yaears ago.
Were you just let out of a mental institution.
D-No
Dennis-Lets just have a cup of coffee
david says point;ing to a restaurant a few feet away
Dennis-Looking at david with fear but
too scared to say no.
Ok
The two sit down and talk at a tble.
David does not want dennis to think he needs to do something to
protect himself from david. That would create another obsession
D-Dennis. This is all done. I never
want to deal with you again. This was all about me
Dennis-is it out of your head now?
Yes-im sorry
Dennis-Getting ip. Get some help stein.
This is really abnormal.
D-you did a lot of damage
They both leave going different
directions.
David-exterior-dancing down the street.
He thinks that he is now finally done
proving his version of manhood and courage to himself
Interior-back at steins
D-Lloyd, you ll never believe this
L-what/
There wasa a guy who shoved me aroung
in high school
L-So?
I just was walking down s5tate street
and saw h;im.
L-I couldn’t resist the urge to get
even with him. I punched him right in the mouth
L-distracted-not really caring
L-Good. Sounds like he had it coming
David at home at moters house ecstatic
David-to old best friend Mike.
D-So, Im walking down the street and I
see oliff. Remember him
M-whatever happened to him
D-i don’t know but I do know what I
did when I saw him.
M-what
I punched him in the face
M-Why
D_Because of all the times he made shit
out of me
M-What did he do
D-he went down like a sack of shit
trembling and hoping I wouldn’t keep hitting him
M-what'd you do?
D-I let him up
M-then what
D-i convinced him to go for a cup of
coffee so I could explain myself
M-explain that youre crazy
D-yeah
M-i cant believe it
D-i did it
M-congatulations.
David on the phone
Dr-I want t have that cystoscoe test
D-you know I don’t recommend it. Its
painful; and unnecessary.
D-but you said it’s the one
conclusive test you can do that will tell you the real story about
Dr-yes. It would
D-Set it up pleas3e
Dr-OK
Interior at hospital
Dr at davids bed before the test
D-remember-plento of antisthetic and no
catheter afte the test
Dr-We always use a catheter so that
afterwardthe pain will be decreased.
D-how much pain?
Dr-A lot for a few days
D-I don’t want a catheter stuck up
there
Dr-suit yourself. Ill see you aftger I
finish
Dr-you can still change your mind right
now before we wheel you down
D-No- do it
David interior afteet test
Dr standing over his bed
David-there was nothing wrong. You are
100% ok in your kidneys and bladder.
D-Groggy-Good
Dr-I check back with you tomorrow.
D-thankd doc
Interior of david getting out of bed to
urinate
D-sitting on toilet
Urine filled with blood comes out
D-Crying out in pain. Excruciating.
Lasts for several days where david lays in hospital be d dreding each
new urge to urinate.
Interior-Dr
David-Your ok im discharging you now.
Is the pain when urinating over the sensitive sking one
D-pretty much
Dr-OK Oh just one thing
D-What
Dr-I noticed something on your chest
xray. Oh never mind. Im sure its nothing
D-What?
Dr. Well, I noticed what im sure was a
little piece of dudt on the xray film. When
D-ok Dr.
Exterior
David walks home from hospital to
mothers house
Mom-Oh honey. Im so glad that’s over
with
D-yeah. But I have another problem
Mom-What honey
D-he needs to do another chest xray to
make sure about something. He said it was nothing
David walking into steins
Feeling he cannot breathe. Obsessed
with his chest. Driving around worried to death about chest xray.
Hyperventilates for several days.
David on phone to DR.
D-Doc-I want to get that chest xray
done again.
Dr-Ok come by and see miss louis
anytime
D-Ok
Miss louis does chest xray
Phone call for david at home
Dr-Hi david. Your chest xray id fine.
There was just some dust on the old one take care.
Hyperventiallting goes away. David is
fine for a day or so
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