Bully Takes A Beating

There was a bully by the name of Gary who transferred to our grammar school when we were twelve. I saw him and immediately my sense of well being was threatened. I sensed trouble. I became vigilant about him knowing my own vulnerability for being bullied. I was a chicken plain and simple and dreaded bullies.
Gary was the type of kid who tried to intimidate anyone who would show any weakness or fear toward him. The bullying could take place in the classroom when the teacher was not looking, in the bathroom, the lunchroom, in the park, or the playground. No place in the neighborhood was safe for me. He would assault any boy he sensed would be a victim. It seems that bullies can tell who will be their prey.

I met Gary in grade school when we were both twelve years old. He looked at me in the bathroom and said "what are you?” I said" what do you mean"? He looked straight in my face and I knew he had my number. Fear and dread ran through my stomach. He said "stays away from me man" "I don't like you already" "What's your name?" "David", I answered. "You a tough guy?" he asked. "I'm OK" I answered fearfully. "No, your not" he answered and walked away. He smelled me.

One day he was pitching softball in gym class. He made the slow pitch game into his own fast pitch game and started throwing balls at the head of everyone who came up to bat.
He had a lot of the kids who were playing scared to death. He hit me in the face with the ball and I did nothing in response. After the game, as we walked back to class, He pushed and slapped several kids to see who would be his marks. He hit me in the gut and I doubled over in pain. My friends watched me try to catch my breath.

It was the same situation at recess. Gary would just walk around bullying people he already had intimidated and looking for new victims. I was constantly sick to my stomach with fear just being near him. He had humiliated me several more times by knocking me around in front of all my friends. I did not have the guts to fight back so I just took his abuse and hated myself for cowardliness.

He was a blond haired, skinny monster who kept getting scarier and scarier as the school year went on. He fought several older boys and won the fights enhancing his reputation. Gary had no friends but only acquaintances who tried to avoid his wrath by patronizing him.

The day of reckoning did come for Gary. He decided to challenge a very tough kid with a big reputation as a ferocious fighter. The guys name was Jerry and he was actually a nice guy who was studious but was mean and could fight. I had seen him demolish a high school kid who he fought in front of the the school one day. The fight between Gary and Jerry was scheduled at the park.

Fight day came and it seemed that about 200 kids showed up to watch. I was there. The fight was a wipe out. Gary went at Jerry fists flying swinging them wildly. Jerry just stood still, blocked a few punches and then hit Gary in the nose with a hay maker. Gary's nose cracked like a twig that had been snapped. Blood poured out like a broken pipe. Gary was finished immediately. He pulled away and buried his face in his shirt to absorb the blood. He held up his hands in a defensive position looking at Jerry for mercy as he backed up.. Jerry grinned. He moved slowly toward the hurt and scared Gary. He knew he owned Gary now.
Jerry said
I don’t like you” Jerry said to Gary.
 Then, ,Jerry grabbed him and then put him in a headlock and hit him in his bloody face with four brutally hard, perfectly placed uppercuts. Gary's face looked like it had gone through a meet grinder. His mouth was bleeding heavily as Jerry finally let screaming Gary out of the headlock. It was a slaughter and now it was over.
Jerry stood there, having hardly gotten a workout. He merely grinned at all the kids watching.  He had made himself an instant legend. Jerry did not gloat or stick around to celebrate. He walked back to where he had put his books down, picked them up and walked away without looking back...

Gary was sitting on a bench several feet away trying to wipe his bloody face off and holding his broken nose He had no supporters.

I looked at him and started to loathe myself for not having what it took to stand up to him.
Why had I let him humiliate me? Even if he would have beaten me if I had fought him I would still have had my dignity. Instead, I was just another chicken. Feelings of inadequacy overcame me

The kids all walked away mumbling about how really tough Jerry was and also mumbling I told you so to each other about what piece of crap Gary really was and that he wasn’t tough.

The question was why had anyone ever let Gary shove them around? The answer was obvious.
Everyone was afraid too stand up to Gary. Everyone is always afraid in our society. It's natural to be.. But, not for everyone. Not for guys like Jerry.That's why we respect tough guys. Because they are willing to face the fear we are not willing or able to

Bullies are only bullies because they can be. Beware of the Jerry's bullies..

Drunken Bitch In My Lyft

Drunken bitch gets in my #Lyft car and says take her to an address near downtown Chicago. We arrive at the destination but she insists that we are not in the right place. The GPS indicates we are,

She gets abusive and starts screaming at  me to take her to the place she wants to go to. I say we are there.  She is screaming like the disgusting spoiled brat she is threatening that she will have me locked up if I will not keep driving to get  her to this imaginary destination. I tell her that the ride is over, that the meter is off, and to leave the car.
She refuses. She says that her dad is a policeman. I hand her my phone and tell her to call him. She screams unintelligibly again and demands I get her to this fictitious address. As I was about to call the cops I see three  of them walking towards my car.

I open the door and start yelling at them to get this drunken nut out of my car. They pull her out after seeing she is drunk. I drive away with her now screaming at the police.

Chicago Cab Driver Beats Up Dope Dealer

This punk called for a ride in my cab. He gets in the car after making me wait for about 15 minutes while he walked down into the street from his garbage can of an apartment building. He got in the cab and I asked "where would you like to go, sir"? This gross looking little asshole immediately buried his face in his cell phone. He answers me, "just drive straight ahead'. I'll tell you where to go".

He  is immediately very absorbed in an obviously shady conversation about where to meet someone to make a drop off. That is what I can interpret. Seems like a dope deal getting set up

 I didn't care but I still wanted to know what part of town we were going to. It is Chicago after all.. I drive another couple blocks and then he says "turn here". It was into a street that goes right to the most dangerous ghetto  in Chicago. I got even more concerned when he mumbled that we have to make more stops along the way after the first one.

 I  decided I was not going to be his escort  driving him to lethal destinations and sit there waiting for him to take care of his customers. I was scared shitless of sitting  in my cab and standing out like a neon sign, a whiter then rice looking older guy being a sitting duck for any low life who targeted me. I knew I was in trouble and that I was on my own to get out of it..There was no time for cell phone calls to the police and something in me would just not let me drive away.

 He directs me to the first address and there are some gang bangers out on a lawn. That told me the story for sure.. They all recognize this guy. One screams "where you been?" "No worries my brothers" " When the Dr. says he's coming he's coming".

The rat gets out of the cab and goes off to a semi-sheltered spot by the house with one guy and I see a fast exchange of a bag going out and a wad of money going into the dealers hands..The dealer. counts the wad and salutes goodbye to his customers..He then looks back a me and signals he will be right back. I'm shaking now because I know what I have to do..

Th dealer.engages in a little more small talk and walks back toward my cab. He then gets in and says" now we're going a few blocks away." I spoke as forcefully as I could. . "How many spots we got to hit"? I asked.hoping he would say  one or two more and Iwould  not have to act.. I didn't want a confrontation with this thug.

 I'll tell you later" he snaps.You just drive" "We got a bunch of things to do" Now, I am getting pissed besides being just plain scared. Again, someone had made me a victim. Just like in the schoolyard I think to myself.  Here's another bully who will abuse me until I won't take it anymore.

I stop the cab and turn around and look at this scum. "Hey man, why you stop? he asks. I opened my door and jumped out of the cab and went to his door. I was petrified. I am  no match for almost. I also thought he
 may have a gun or knife. But, I had made my decision..

 I open his door. "Would you step out sir, this ride is over" " I do not have to drive anyone who I feel unsafe with and I feel unsafe with you". Motherfucker" he screams in my face with a stinky breath and gleaming yellow teeth. "You ain't throwing me out" I'm not done here"

He starts  trying to get out of the car and go for  me. I hold his door closed for a second. Then I backed up and let him out. He came at me. I pivoted on the curb, and then I smashed him in the face as hard as I could as he got out of the door..

My right fist connected hard.. Blood shot out of his nose which cracked like a tree branch.. I put my knee in his chest as he fell and held my hand around his neck as he hit the ground..

"More"? I said " with a cocked fist above his busted face.."Your crazy man" he said.. I'll find you and hurt you bad"
 "No you won't asshole" "You have better things to do" And, I'll get you busted" "

The fare is on me I said as I stood up and walked back into my cab".
He was on the ground holding his busted nose as I drove away..

"Take the bus next time".I yelled..

Old Dick Gets New Life

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 3-Start realizing that you have it in you to be a great lover. Maybe you never thought very much about your sexual abilities. Lovemaking must be understood and practiced. Touching correctly is essential. You can perform miracles manually on your partner with your hands . Remember, it is all about pleasuring your lady and making her have orgasms. Then, you will be the man in her mind and your mind.. I know,your happiness is important too. But, let's deal with her first. you will get yours.

 4- Get comfortable in your lovemaking. Practice communication. Honestly and sincerely ask for her comments and suggestions about whether what you are doing is pleasing her and how you can improve your methods. When you are touching her body, especially her pussy or vagina, remember to ask  if you should go "faster, slower, higher or lower". Those words will let you know when she is pleased with your stroke and when she is about to have an orgasm,  If you get your hands working right on her like you do on your hammer or putter you will get unlimited appreciation for your efforts.

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6-You don't know what you are missing if you have never made amazing love. Try it.

Compulsive Gambler With Nowhere To Go

Write, write write, I am a 67 year old guy who wants to leave his mark on the world

and writing is the one approach I can think of.  I certainly will never run out of content. I blew a ton of money because I am a compulsive who built a small business newspaper in the 80,s and 90,s. I have lived a life of sex, drugs, and chasing women.I sit here alone and depressed. I have great children and grandchildren, no debts because I have been bailed out, I'm healthy...but..life sucks. Depression is destroying me.

I started the newspaper with literally no money but I was great at selling ads. So, in a few years I had the newspaper it up to a million dollar volume and 25 people working for me. I didn’t know shit about managing a business or publishing or anything that makes a good publication.. But man, could I hustle that advertising space. On the phone, in person, selling subscriptions or selling full page ads to IBM or the corner store.. It did not matter. I was a great hustler.

But, I could not stop gambling so almost all the money made from sales, taken from those inept  investors, from those disgusting bankers went down the tubes at the crap tables, to bookmakers, in poker games, into the stock market. So, to make a very long story short  I blew about 2 million dollars, went bankrupt, and only got right financially after going to Gambler Anonymous on Jan 9, 2009 and not making a bet since then. 

So, here I sit...with the flu. But, it does not matter. 

I have nowhere to go.

It's bleak and dark in Chicago. Gonna rain.

Chicago's Top Food Dives From a Lyft Driver

                               David's Top Food Dives in Chicago

Kumas-2900 W Belmont- Fabulous Burgers
Jay's Beef-North Av west of Damen-As good as any I've eaten
Hero Submarine-Western and Addison-Perfect
Jeri's all night diner-Western and Montrose They give you the whole can with the milkshake- unheard of
the Diner on Irv Park Rd. a few blocks west of Ashland av-That white shack
Ricobenes- Great breaded steaks and pizza On 26th St near Wells. St

                       MORE PLACES LATER IF I GET IN THE MOOD

Do I Have A Future As A Writer? Rough Draft.

 Should I Go Back To Driving A Cab or Is There A Writer In me?

David interior of Lucy’s apartment

Arrives at Lucy’s The Match

Fade In

David sits at his computer scanning the online dating site like a trained hunter. He sees this tall, seductive but funky looking woman of about 50 and looking very indifferent. Kinda smug. Posing like a hotter version of  Faye Dunaway in Bonnie and Clyde” but so very obviously intelligent and also streety.  Tall too. Great looking body.  David wonders out loud “Is she hot or not”?

His 62 year old trained eyes coupled with years of dating experience do not tell him a story. She could be a good one but probably isn’t” She’s probably not worth trying to meet he decides. Then, he goes back to look at her and reads her profile her again. Then again he reconsiders.

“Divorced, self employed, no kids living at home” her profile states. She seems so unaffected, uncaring about whether she gets any attention or not, as if she were forced onto the site by a friend or daughter. David mumbles bullshit probably to himself.  However, worth an email to her he decides.

Interior David apt

David “Hi. Check my profile and pictures and see whatcha think. Maybe we could talk? Sincerely David”

Fade Out To Lucys Apt

“This blows” she tells Deborah , her friend who convinced her to pay and get on match.com, the online meat market.  “ I keep getting emails from babies and idiots “ This is not where I want to be”. She points at her computer and shows Debbie a mountain of emails that have come from men all over who fired off their best lines her.

Lucy”Look at this guy” she taunts and tells Debbie that they both  should go out for a drink and waste no more time..

Then, as an afterthought Lucy glances at her match.com inbox one more time and sees an email from David. She checks his profile information. “What does this dope have to say she asks Debbie?

Lucy reads profile, “divorced, still working, no kids at home” lives nearby. She looks at his pictures. No big deal but interesting..

Certainly not an appropriate fit for her cavalry of old boyfriends. She wonders, “can this grey haired somewhat weird looking but maybe slightly sexy guy make her wild libido explode. Like the first boyfriend she had after she left her nice Jewish,  but very boring lawyer husband for.” 

It took Johnny Loren, ex lightweight world champion boxer to finally give her the animal, insatiable sexual fulfillment she had tried to bury with booze, parties, and many partners

. There was a 25 year history of relationships with all kinds of black, Hispanic and every other kind of man who could recite poetry and fuck at the same time.

But, all that was over and the pickings were slim. Alcoholism had wiped out most of her following except for the cadre of loyal friends, men and women who wanted her all the time in some way but who only served to amuse Lucy.

Lucy“ Ok deb,” I’m ready to go out but hang on? I’m gonna write this David guy back. “I have nothing happening tomorrow night and I am curious” she smirked.”

Lucy Interior apt

Lucy “Maybe we could meet for a drink tomorrow night. Here is my number.

Lucy”

Fade To David

Interior apt

David looks at his match.com emails and sees the Bonnie and Clyde person. It is Lucy who had written back.”

David picks up the phone.

“Hi. This is David, the guy from match. How are you?

Lucy-fine. Just dancing around the place. She sounded tipsy.

David-“Would you like to meet tomorrow night for a drink’?

Lucy ‘that’s what I had in mind”

Lucy “how about the Ritz bar on rush st?

David “Fine. I look just like my picture David says?

Lucy“Really? Wow” “That’s exciting” sarcasm dripping from her already.

Lucy- 7.30, ok?

David“I’ll be there”

Fade to Interior of Bar

David sits outside bar not seeing Lucy. Finally, he goes inside and sits at the bar next to this very Slavic looking, tall and sexy woman with a great face and red hair.

Lucy“are you David?’ “

David-“Yes” You’re Lucy.”

Lucy-“Uh, yeah, I have been sitting here”.

Lucy-“Are you always in such a daze?

David”Not always”

David-“ I just didn’t know you were here already”.

Lucy-“Obviously” she retorts but with sweet amusement.

Interior at bar

Sizing each other up

David is swept away by the obvious beauty and salty personality of this new person. He tries to read Lucy but cannot.

Then, she smiles at him and says she would like to sit down in a small, intimate, booth in the back of this empty bar owned by her friend.

Interior little booth

She looked at this tall guy with black glasses and an athletic body and was very attracted. He had this face that she found uniquely beautiful. Her mind danced and skipped at a furious pace. He was no wild crazy stud but he did it for her immediately like no one she had ever met before. She could hardly contain herself as they sat together in the little booth. Being the worlds most impulsive woman she wanted to start kissing him right away.

Lucy “I want an Italian Beef sandwich.” Will you take me?

David-“Sure”

Interior-

Als Beef Stand

David and Lucy exchange their first kiss with beef juice dripping from both their lips.  It was mutual magic. They stare at each other with hearts throbbing

 Lucy-“I have to go home for just a little while” It’s close”

David-“Why”

Lucy “ I have to walk my dog”. 

David-“Ok”

Interior Davids Car

As we got back into my car Lucy went wild with passion. All she wanted to do was kiss me as we swerved long the most dangerous area of a Chicago expresswway. It was a dream”

David-Where am I going”

Lucy-“ Turn there. No. not there. There That’s right.

Lucy-Jesus. “No sense of direction for a guy”

Interior Car-Near lucys condo

David-“ what kind of dog do you have?

 Lucy-“A Doberman 

David- I’m freaked out totally”

Lucy.”Your body is wet from sweat. You look white as a sheep”

David-“I have had a terrible fear of dogs in general my whole life and particularly, Pit Bulls, Dobermans, German Shepards They are dogs I would always cross the street to avoid.

 “Lucy-Well, get past it”

David’No. I cant”

David“I am never going in your house. Ever,”

Lucy-“OK”

She just seemed to not hear me and kept trying kissing me.

Lucy-“You can stay downstairs in your car while I walk him”

Lucy-“I”ll come back.

Lucy”Then we can kiss some more”.

Lucy-“I don’t not want the night to end..

Davids Car-Lucy leaving to go walk the dog

David- “ok”

I was determined to stay in the car.

Lucy “why don’t you just get out of the car and stand downstairs by the stoop and you can go for a walk with us. That might make you less afraid. Sitting in your car won’t do anything”

David “that’s ok I said, “I’ll stay right here.

Lucy started to get out of the car. I sat there feeling like a coward. I knew I would have to face the dog sometime because this was probably going to be a romance.

David “wait Lucy”. “Does the Doberman bite?” “

Lucy-“Yes, I have had to pay off several people she bit already.”

David-“Well, will she be ok with me?”

Lucy”I don’t know” she answered in her brutally honest and unwavering style.”

Lucy-“, You pussy”Cmon’ She motioned to follow her up to the stoop outside her apartment.

David-“ Ok.You got me”

David trips on the curb going toward Lucys.

Lucy-Jesus, “I cant take my eyes off you for a minute”.

David-“Not so smooth, huh”?

Lucy-“Your lips are.”

For whatever thinking went through me I decided to defy a lifelong fear and throw caution to the wind. I followed Lucy upstairs into the dark house instead of staying downstairs. I was certain would get mauled by this Doberman protecting Lucy.

I was scared beyond words. So scared that the fear left me frozen in large part as I stood in the housed waiting for the dog to sink its teeth into me and tear me apart. It did not happen.  The dog only sniffed me. We went downstairs and walked the dog.

Exterior of street walking dog

Lucy-“Sweetie is her name”

Sweetie is a beautiful dog.

David” Oh” Nice looking dog”

I stayed away from bumping into Sweetie as we walked

I made it through the walk unscathed. Terrified.

Interior-Lucys

Lucy-“Be good sweetie. Mommy will be back later

Lucys hallway-Walking downstairs back to my car

I breathe a sigh of relief feeling very brave.

David-“I did it. I faced my greatest fear”

Lucy-“Congratulation” Give me your lips”

We kissed for hours till our lips were raw.

David interior Apt

Phone rings

Lucy” Hi. It’s Lucy. Want to go to this benefit I’m speaking at tomorrow night?

David-“Yeah”

Interior of Ballroom

Lucy talks to Dick someone, a publisher.

Lucy-“Ya know Dick, that article you wrote was just great. But I don’t see how the Polish government will pull that off “

The conversation with Lucy and her friend who I thought was hitting on her went on and on. Finally. although I was so new and just a guest at this fancy dinner where she was speaking about her films in Poland to all these distinguished people I could not stand being ignored by her for so long while she spoke to one person after another.

David “this is so rude. I cannot understand why you are ignoring me?

Lucy-“ You?

Lucy-“What are you a baby ?”

Lucy-“You need constant attention?”

Lucy “”Stop whining”? I am doing business.”

David“I am pissed”. “You are being rude to me”

Lucy looked both angry and amused at my temerity. We had our first argument but it didn’t last.

Lucy-“You’re sick she smiled as we left”

Lucy-“I’ll buy you some toys”

.

Interior-Davids Apartment

A few days later we had our second date. She came to my apartment. I started to show her pictures of my three kids, the wallpaper, the view and she just didn’t care. She kissed me again and again. She was indifferent. She literally threw me onto my king sized bed. I looked up at her irresistible body and face as she stood over me ready to devour me. We made wild love that day and stayed in bed for about 2 months afterward with breathers for food, movies, and a little work. It was the sex I had dreamed of my whole life but never thought peoplke did it except in the movies or in books. We made love for 5 hours.

David Interior Apt

Phone rings

Lucy: Do you want to go to a dinner party Sat night?

David-Sure?

Lucy-“Its’ formal. Got a suit or tux?

David-“Yes.

Lucy-“You can meet some of my friends. There’s a bunch whole going out to dinner. David-“I’m in”

Fade to restaurant bar

David- Where is this place (as they ride around?

Lucy-“I think it’s up a few blocks ahead.

Lucy-turn left

David “OK”

Lucy-“you just turned right”

David-“I thought you said turn right”

Lucy  “Oh. I remember” You get confused when your driving:”

Lucy “There it is.”

Jims restaurant”

Lucy “Why don’t you drop me off and find a place to park

David drives around trying to find a parking space. Hits the curve hard.

Interior restaurant

Lucy makes introductions of her friends to David. She is talking slurry. She seems to be getting drunk quickly.

Lucy-David, this is my friend Laura”

Laura- “So David, where did you graduate college?”

David-I didn’t finish college

Laura- Oh, What do you do?

David-“I’m unemployed.”

Laura-Looking strangely at David. Lucy peering in. Well, I thought if you were with Lucy you…. David cuts her off

David-“Do you need a job to date Lucy?”

David“I’m getting on the job training.”

Lucy intervenes

Lucy-“He’s not the brightest bulb Laura, but he’s good in bed.”

“Must be” snorts Laura

David-“Im great. Why would I be in this distinguished company?” david says sarcastically at Laura

Interior Davids Car

Lucy and David go to his  car

Lucy explodes.

Lucy-“Nice”.

David-Nice?

Lucy-Did you have to act like an asshole?

David-Asshole”?

Yeah. “Why would you talk snotty to my friend like that?

David-“I’m an idiot trying to cover up insecurities.”

Lucy

“Let’s go to the awards.”

“Try to remember where I tell you to turn’

 Interior Awards dinner.

Lucy still acting tipsy and slurring words

Lucy-“I don’t think you and I are going to work.”

David- “Not if you can’t stop drinking we won’t.”

Lucy-“That has nothing to do with you being rude to my friends’

David-“I wasn’t”

Lucy-“how about Laura”/

Lucy-“Take me home.” Your nasty”

David-“Stop it.”

Lucy-“Fuck you”

David-“Ok I’m taking you home.”

Lucy-“Try not to get lost. I’ve noticed you drive like a blazen”.”

David-“Whats that?”

Lucy“A deer lost in the headlights.”

 David “I drive fine.”

David gets lost quickly again

Lucy-“You were supposed to turn there.”

David-“How would you know?”

Lucy-“I’m drunk but not unconscious”

David-“Maybe you could get a package deal-2 for 1

Lucy-“Driving school and a school for social graces.”

Exterior

In front of Lucy’s house in car

Lucy starts to jump out quickly.

David-“should I help you up the stairs”?

Lucy-“Don’t bother. You’d only get lost getting back to your car.”

Lucy-“Were done.”

Reunited after a day apart by phone call from David.

Interior of David’s Car

Lucy asked me if I wanted to go to this guy Paul Scott’s summer house over the weekend after we made up She promised a big house on the beach in Michigan and a bunch of other people who would all go there and have a good time eating, drinking, and relaxing. The plan was that I would pick up Lucy and her sister Linda at Lucys house at 11.30 am on a Friday and we would take a nice leisurely drive of about an hour and a half to go to Paul’s house. More people would be coming. I was excited. Lucy promised a nice easy trip. No hassles,  A loving weekend which should  have tipped me off. It was truly the nightmare weekend from hell.

Lucy- “you were supposed to be here at 11.30”

David- “So. Its 12 o clock.}}”

David- Is 30 minutes with nothing to do a disaster?

Lucy-“Yes”

David-“I’m sorry”

Lucy-“gee, sorry again” sorry sorry sorry”

Lucy- “what is there that you ever do that you’re not sorry about?”

We all get in my car which Lucy decides she will drive because I do not drive well enough to suit her. I get into the back seat and her sister Linda, one of of America’s miserable people, sits in the front. I might of well have been a prisoner who had raped a child in the company of two sadistic guards who hated me and could barely stand to have me in the car. Their anger and contempt was so intense.

They talked and talked to each other only. The closest Lucy got to talking to me or even paying attention to me was glancing in her rear view mirror once every twenty five minutes to see if I hopefully had fallen out of the car.

Linda, who hardly knew me, was in her evil heaven with me in solitary confinement. She quietly delighted that I was being totally ignored by Lucy and easily took the queue. The two sisters chatted about everything you could imagine as we drove along the hwy. I tried to be part of the conversation many times. No. No one cared bout anything I had to say at all. I couldn’t believe that my treatment could be so rotten. Lucy and I were falling apart in chunks and these was just a few months after we were ready to move in together, get married, and stay in bed forever needing no one else in the world.

Now, I had been reduced to an unwanted passenger in route to a weekend of fun which Lucy did not even want me to be part of.

Lucy-There’s this real good lunch place called Gigios that Paul told me us to eat at.

Linda-Fine.

Lucy-“they have great hamburgers.”

David-“I know of this fifties type diner that is great” It’s called Pennys.

Lucy-“we already know where were going”

didn’t you hear what I just said?”

David- (Pissed) I want to go to Pennys”

 It will be my highlight of this fine ride

Lucy-“lets go there Linda He’s a baby but maybe the place is good.”

Linda-Fine. We find Pennys diner

 Lucy-“David, we’ll get out in front and you park the car”

David ” Nice of you to give me something to do.

Lucy- “see if you can avoid hitting another car. Also, see if you can get back to this crappy little joint without getting lost. I don’t want to have to go find you.”

David-“the place is only across from a parking lot

 Lucy-“that’s far enough to confuse you”

Interior restaurant

The three of us sitting at a table

Waitress-“what will you guys have?”

Everyone orders but I start to chat up the waitress thinking being cute will get me some redemption from the mental abuse being inflicted by Lucy’s continual silence and mean sarcasm. I showed the waitress a little hand sanitizer that I had been selling many of. I sell advertising specialties

David- to waitress-“stick out your hand’

She does and I squirt the sanitizer spray into the waitress’s hands. Lucy rolls her eyes as her sister just looks on nodding no expression. Her mean face continually says it all to everyone.

Waitress-“that’s really cute”

David-“show it to your boss. My number is on it”

Waitress “ok”

waitress walks away to other customers

Lucy-Did you have to do that? “You know how uncomfortable you make me feel when you hustle your garbage around me.” Why are you so dopey”

David-“I hustle good”

Lucy-“Really good. That’s why you have no money”

David-“I’m trying”

Lucy- “like you tried to pick us up at 11.30 and show up at 12. or try to talk to my friends or try to drive right”.

David- “So, whats the big deal?”

Lucy-“The big deal was that you ruined this whole weekend already”

David- “over being late half an hour”?

Lucy-it’s cumulative. “You are a blazen.

David-“whats that”

Lucy-“A deer in the headlights”

Lucy ” Your dick is your only asset”

David-“wow”

Lucy-“Lets go or do you want to try to sell something to another store as long as were here

David-“Funny”

Lucy to Linda- “It’s sad”

We pull up to Pauls beautiful summer home. I am still getting ignored as I walk around this massive house and check it out. Lucy announces she will be going to the beach with her sister

I say “I think I’ll just stay in and watch TV”

Lucy –“that is a great idea”. Why don’t you  just take a nap until the next morning?

I follow Lucy and Linda down to the beach about a half hour later.

I’m feeling like I need strong medication for post traumatic stress disorder.

We all layed on beach chairs together. Naturally, no one is talking to me. The sisters just chat away as if I was not there. I start to get bored after about an hour on the beach.

 I get up and get ready to go back to the summer house.

David- “I'm going in”

Lucy-“Can you find your way there she spits back, tuned into her automatic sarcasm mode”

David- “No. I don’t think so. Want come back with me? Maybe we can get a quickie in before anyone even notices”

Lucy- why don’t you go in the bathroom and beat off. You like that better anyway.

I go back to the house and watch TV.

Dinner

About 7 different people are sitting around before dinner talking about old times. Again, I am not included in the conversation. Everyone thee is old friends from Lucy’s home town of Berwyn

If you ever heard of Berwyn that is the rough, mean area near Chicago  where Al Capone ruled Chicago from.

It is made up primarily of hard core two fisted drinkers, fighters, and wife beaters. Becoming a mechanic after growing up in Berwyn is like becoming a brain surgeon or rocket scientist from where I grew up. Lucy's charm and her brutality were honed by her upbringing in Berwyn. With all of her worldly accomplishment in film making and writing the Berwyn girl is still in her. She is tough. And, she is mad at me.

For what? Because I was half an hour late picking up her and her sweet sister up? And a few other mistakes in her mind.

We all have a nice dinner made by Paul Scott and his wife. Our hosts.

We sit around and then the whole group gets tired at about 11 pm. Lucy and I have a cute room with individual beds downstairs by the kitchen.

I sneakily swallow down a big Viagra as we get ready for bed. I feel the great big hard on arriving as I lay down in Terrys bed. I figure redemption is still possible. Also, despite everything Lucy is the hottest, sexiest woman on earth. I will sweep her away with passion like usual and then she will sweeten up. I crawl into her bed and push my rod against her rear end as I wrap my arms around her and pull her towards me.

Lucy- “Not here she shrieks”

David-“Why not, No one is around”

Lucy-“they’ll hear Just go to sleep. I m not in the mood anyway”

David-“Why not? You always are. I think to myself that this is really going to be a grim unsalvageable situation”.

Lucy-“I’m tired”.

I go into my own bed and hope that tomorrow will be better.

David-“This problem with us is only about being late picking you up?”

Lucy-“No”. “It’s about my poor choices in men And your general style blazen. Goodnight”.

We both go to sleep. First I quietly wacky off very silently so the new ice maiden won't hear. After all I have this big Viagra dick with no Lucy to use it on. I get away with it without her hearing. I think. At about 3am I wake up. I’m starving and I am naked also. I walk over to the kitchen and open the refrigerator door. I look at a great selection of cookies and deli meats. Perfect. I am finally happy but only for a second. Next to me at the refrigerator is Lucy

Lucy-“What re you doing?”

David-“Getting something to eat”

Lucy-“You’re naked and standing at a strangers refrigerator in the middle of the night she asks incredulously

David”Yeah I say, not thinking very much of it.

Lucy-“people don’t do that”

David-“I do”

Lucy—“your obviously not people I am realizing quickly”.

David-“I’m hungry I say grabbing at some salami.”

Lucy-“Get your hands off that and go back to bed you idiot. She is raging mad. We are nose to nose standing at that refrigerator.”

She is not joking in her rage at me. I am still hungry not thinking that anyone would care about me eating some food while the whole house is upstairs and asleep. Being naked never occurred to me.

Lucy “Get back in bed she snaps and glares at me like I was a housebroken dog who had just shit on the floor.

I go back to bed.

Ride Back to Chicago

Interior car

David-“Lucy, can we just forget about the Paul Scott disaster?”

Linda-“Why should she forget about you standing in front of the refrigerator naked? What an embarrassment”

David-“That’s what you think Lucy?

Lucy-What should she think?

David-You can think about minding

your own business Linda. “It’s me and Lucy with the problem and it’s none of your business”

Lucy-“It’s my sister therefore it’s my business”

Lucy-“David, none of your pouting, petulance, or being the victim or anything else is going to change anything. We are obviously through”.

David-“Fine”

Dissolve to lost car

David-“I can’t remember where my car is parked

Lucy- Gee. What a surpriseWhy don’t you just jump out here? It can’t be more then a few miles away”.

David-“Funny”.

Exterior

Cruising around until David’s car is found.

David-“Do you want me to call you later?”

Lucy-“Never”

Lucy drives away

David at home

D-Dialing Lucy- depressed and beaten

David-“Hi”

Lucy What?

David-“Can we talk?

Lucy-“No Now, how many times do I have to say no before you give up again?”

David-“I’ll never give up”

David-“Can I come over?

Lucy-No, David. Can’t you hear me? No wonder you always got your way. You just don’t take no. I’d like to yell at your mother”.

David- “You wouldn’t be talking this much if you weren’t feeling a little something for me”.

Lucy-Only if you walk Sophie and don’t bother me she laughs.

David breathes easier. She is relenting

Interior Lucys apt.

 “I’m working on the Poland script”. “Im leaving a week from today for 3 months not that you’ll remember.”

David-“Oh No”

David “You didn’t tell me”

Lucy-You don’t pay attention to anything ive noticed”

David-“What are you going to do with Sophie”? (David looking very worried about Sophies care)

  Lucy-“I don’t know yet.”

David-I’m coming over now.

Lucy-Remember; leave me alone when you get here.

David-OK

Sophie jumps up excited

David-Oh my little Sophie

Sophie licks and loves David

Lucy acts like she doesn’t notice. She sits at her computer typing.

David plays with Sophie after walking her. They clearly love each other after only a few months. Lucy softens more. She wraps her arms around David.

Lucy-“Don’t ever forget your’e my blazen and I love you.”

They make fast and wild love as Sophie watches.

David-“So, what about Sophie when you leave?’

Lucy-“I’m going to give her away. I will find someone.”

David-“I think it would be better to put her down then give her to anyone. No one on earth can handle her. You know that”

Lucy-“I would never put her down David”

David-Why?

 David[“Then she would be at peace and so would we. Think about that versus not knowing how a stranger will handle her or that he won’t mistreat her. She loves you and me only. She can’t be anywhere else but here.”

David- “You know no one else can handle her”

Lucy—“I have to go away and Sophie will be fine”.

David--Will you promise me something

Lucy-“Oh honey. Look at you. You’re so sad. Why are you such a blazen with everyone I introduce you to?”

David-“I’m not a blazen with Sophie

Lucy grabs Davids face

Lucy-“You’re so beautiful honey”

David-“Really?”

Lucy-“You know you are”

David-“I don’t”

T-“Cmere”

She pulls Davids head between her big breasts

Lucy-“Are you my baby?”

David-“Yeah”

Lucy_Can't you learn to act right? I cant take you anywhere.

D-“I’ll be better”

They kiss deeply and passionately

David-Fight over?

Lucy-“It was over when you called”

David-“Promise me one thing.”

Lucy-“What?”

David-“Promise that you won’t do anything with Sophie without talking to me. If you give her away I want to know the details and have input.

Lucy-“I promise. You’ll know everything.”

.

Pan away as David leaves Lucy’s

David Interior at home

Ring Ring,

David-“Hello”

Lucy-David?  “Who do you think it is?

David_” What bad thing are you going to tell me?”

Lucy-“How do you know me so well?”

David-“What?”

Lucy-“There is this handyman I have used many times. He loves Sophie and Sophie loves him. He is Ashas cousin. She vouches for his integrity”

Lucy-“He was over doing some work.

David-So?

 Lucy-“I gave Sophie away to him”.

David-“What?”

T-I gave Sophie to Niño. That’s his name” She’ll be fine. She loves him more then me”

David-“Bullshit”

David-You promised you wouldn’t just do it.

David-You don’t know anything about this guy

Lucy-“Honey, I know what I’m doing. I told you he’s good”

David-“You don’t know shit you bogus assshole”

David- Crying.

David-“How could you?’

David “You just gave her away to a stranger”  our Sophie.

David strtas to cry uncontrollably. He genuinely is broken up about Sophie

David-interior of his apt

Impact sinking in to David

Talking to Lucy on phone

David-“Why Why Why?

  David”You promised Lucy you fucking liar.”

Lucy-“it’s done and you’ll have to get over it. You can visit her”

D-I don’t want to visit her. I want her here”

Lucy-“She’s gone honey and I’m going to be gone too in a week for 3 months.

I told Nimo he could bring her back anytime he didn’t want her anymore.

David-“Were finished forever. I never want to hear your voice again”.

% months go by

5 months later Lucy returns

David is seized with fits of crying over Sophie the entire 5 months. He keeps talking to her and begging her for forgiveness for letting her get away. He just can’t get over her.. Tranquilizers keep him going. His heart is broken in 2 parts. One for Sophie, the other over Lucy  although hatred of Lucy relieves it sometimes. There is no relief about Sophie.

Interior Davids car =5 months later

David driving car

 David dials a customer but gets Lucy on the phone instead

David-“Your home?

Lucy-“Yes. I have been for 3 weeks”.

David-“Oh”.

Lucy-“Why did you call?

David-It was an accident. I was dialing someone else and you were there.

Lucy-“You’re lying”

No. “Really”.

David-“I wasn’t even thinking about you.”

Lucy-“I don’t believe a word out of your mouth.”

David-“I don’t care” “It was an amazing coincidence”

David-“I’m coming over”

Interior of Lucys hallway

Lucy-“That didn’t take long”.

David-“I told you I never wanted to hear from you again.Then I heard your voice before.”

Lucy-“You big baby.”

David-“You gave away Sophie”-

Lucy-She’s fine. I just checked on her.

David-She is?

Lucy-“Yes.”

Lucy and David make long hours of passionate love renewing vows of eternal love.

Interior Lucys apt

Phone rings

Lucy-“Are you serious?”

Lucy-“Yes. Of course you can.”

Lucy-When do you want me to pick Sophie up?

Lucy-“Great”

Lucy”Is she ok?”

Lucy-“Wonderful.

Lucy’Thank you Nino”

Lucy-Great. I’ll be there tomorrow at 10 am.

David-Jumping up and down screaming for joy listening to conversation.

Lucy-“Nimo just called and is giving back Sophie”.

Lucy-“He says he has to work too much now at his new job to keep her.”

David-“It’s a miracle. I can’t believe it. I hope she is ok.”

Lucy-“He said she was fine’

Pan to Sophie on the bed with Lucy and David.

Sophie going crazy licking Lucy and David.

David-“Oh Sophie, My baby. Oh, I missed you so much. Now were all back together.”

Fade out with Lucy and David and Sophie all in bed sleeping peacefully

Dissolve to shrinks office (Joanne)

David-She just won’t stop drinking

Lucy-He’s’ exaggerating

David- “You call blacking out and staying in bed for  weeks an exaggeration?

Lucy-“Enough”

Shrink –“I don’t think either of you are in a healthy relationship.

David-“This is bullshit. You got no idea what kind of problems she has” (TO shrink)

Lucy-“And I don’t need you to tell her.  Sorry shrink”.

Lucy-“He’s leaving. I’m sorry he came.”

David-“So am I”

Outside shrinks office

Lucy-“I told you we couldn’t work. I gave you too many chances. You just don’t know how to act with anyone.

David-“That shrink sucks. She’s a waste of time.”

Lucy “What do you suppose you are?”

David-“Goodbye again and for the final time”

David-“Just don’t do anything stupid with Sophie like giving her away again”

Lucy”- “But I am going away again in a few months for another 2 months. “I have my nephew Johnny staying at my house and taking care of Sophie. He has your number. You can help him with her”.

David-“Ok I will. Anytime he needs me”.

David getting [hone calls reputedly from John to walk her. David loves Sophie more and she fills his loneliness with the unconditional love he wants so badly from Lucy

Interior car-Airport

Lucy comes home with David picking her up at the from airport

Interior shot-

Lucys condo

Broken expensive vase david broke trying to put a leash on Sophie

Lucy-“What’s this she screams?

D-“I broke it trying to get Sophies leash on”

Lucy”How could you break it? Its 7 feet high.

D-Well, you see……………….

Lucy-“What an idiot?” another example of your incompetence”

David-I’m sorry”

Lucy-“I missed you honey. Let’s just be together for a few days. Stay here”

David-“Heart pounding. Ohhh K”

Lucy”Will you go out and get me some things at the store. I’ll cook us a nice dinner.

David goes

Supermarket interior

David calling with questions about what he was told by Lucy to buy.

No answer.

Interior of Lucys 30 minutes later

Dark apartment

Lucy passed out in bed with 2 empty bottles of wine on the nightstand.

David shakes his head in disbelief.

David Here we go again-

 David walks Sophie  and both come back and sits on an unconscious, drunk Lucys bed

David leaves.

Lucy and David stop sleeping together but continue to talk.

Interior

David at Health club calling Lucy

David-“Hi Lucy”

Lucy-I’m leaving for 2 weeks to California for vacation.

Who is going to take care of Sophie? (David afraid)

Lucy“I was thinking of giving her to Nimo again. Maybe he’ll take her. Or I could give her to Nicki, my friend who owns a boarding kennel. But she has done so much already

David-I’ll take her

Lucy-“You will?”

David-I’ll move in to your house and stay with Sophie.

Lucy—“Really”?/

David-“Yeah”

David-Call to Lucy from car after thought about taking care of Sophie.

David-“I’m coming over”

T=”No”

D “I have to talk to you”

T “About what?”

D- “Ill tell you when I get there’

Interior of Lucy’s apt

David-I've been thinking about moving in here and taking care of Sophie and I'm conflicted.

Lucy-“cut to the chase”

David-“I don’t want to do it

Lucy-“I figured as much when you called”

David-“Crying”

Lucy”-“Oh honey, don’t cry. You’re just a pussy and everything will be fine. I’ll call Nicki. She'll take her.

David” I’m so sorry.”

Lucy—“I know you are. Come lay down in bed with me.

They are passionate and happy together without making love all night long

Pan to Dominick’s foods the next morning

David-“ Where is the dog food section?

Clerk “Isle “18”

David-“Thank you.”

David bewildered over what kind of wet and dry dog food to buy.

Pan to Dog kennel

Nicki—“Hi David”

Hi Nicki

Here is all the food

Nicki- “Lucy tell you which kind to buy?”

“I don’t want Sophie to get diarrhea.”

David_”I bought a whole assortment.”

Nicki-Ill call Lucy It’s all good”  Nicki trying to get rid of a concerned David.

lucy and David make plans to meet at her house that night at 9 pm. For a goodbye visit David sets himself up with Viagra, rubbers, and is ready to rekindle their relatiojnship again with lovemaking

David walks into a dark house. Lucy is in bed. Drunk.

Lucy-“ you couldn’t even buy the right dog food”

David-I’m sorry. I tried”

David decides to give up permanently.

She will never stop drinking. He goes home promising to take Lucy to the airport the next morning.

Interior of Davids Car

“Bye Lucy” Be careful.

Lucy” I will honey”

.

Sober Compulsive Gambler Tormented To Gamble Again

So I am sitting at my desk in my condo. I am still torn between betraying my lover/mother who takes care of me in every way. Emotionally, financially, and spiritually. Except, she is married to someone else and is out of town most of the winter. It's better when she is in town and keeps me out of this clinical depression.

So, I have been resisting the perpetual urge to start gambling again although I have been clean and sober for over six years If I gamble she will find out quickly even if I sneak it. Also, my kids and few close friends would immediately lose all respect for me and lose all trust. I would be cutting myself off from the easiest life one could imagine. I have not gambled in over six years.

I am covered financially by my very rich sugar momma only because I do not gamble. If I do gamble she would cut me off in a second. I would end up broke and living in the gutter. Now, I live in a penthouse and have plenty of money between driving a cab, making money from a promotional business, and getting social security. If I'm short of cash or want anything then all I have to do is call momma..She never says no.

Still, the monster to gamble lives within me. I want to chuck it all an go back to the craps table, play online poker and bet ballgames. I want eject myself from this desk and make a furiously fast journey to Las Vegas or just go to one of the gambling boats thirty minutes away from my house..The addiction to gamble has remained so powerful that it eats at me every minute of every day. It is all I want to do.

So, I sit here at the age of 66 in torment. I am too smart and have lived the degenerate life in previous years for too long so all I need to do is play the tape of what my life will evolve to if I go back into action.. No sugar mama, no respect from my family who I have punished, no respect from my few friends and no respect for myself.

Yet, I am tempted to throw it all away.

The hardest truth is I am a horrible gambler who almost never won and manged to lose almost two million dollars.I don't even have a plan.

 I just want to give in to the impulse and go gamble..

Three Beautiful Things: New game, craft and shoes.

Three Beautiful Things: New game, craft and shoes.

Online Match Becomes Stalker

                                        Internet Fatal Attraction

I was cruising my favorite internet dating sight a while ago and the ultimate sexual fantasy happened. I looked at the picture and profile of a gorgeous, seductive looking, tall red head with big tits, long legs, and undeniable animal magnetism.

She was jumping thru the screen beseeching me to go after her. She described herself as being all about fun and gratification and wanting a magical man who could enjoy blissful pleasure with her.

Well, I am a 45 year old inveterate addict attracted to any kind of action be it women, food alcohol, drugs, and especially sex. The rush is what I live for. . So, I immediately contacted her via email and we exchanged phone numbers and the craziness began. One thing you don’t do on an internet dating site is get into any intimate conversations  let alone hot sexual phone talk when the person on the other end might be a beast that you will want to run from when you meet. You go slowly on online dating.  Very slowly, no matter who you are.

No matter how well, a person learns to dress up their picture and profile an undesirable is still going to be undesirable when the meeting face to face happens. Discretion is always the better part of valor   Do not get personal until you meet. That’s the rule.

Well, when I got on the phone with Ellie I quickly threw away the rule book. We spoke briefly like the two old dating pros we were covering normal niceties such as our  histories, food preferences, travel experiences, other relationships and a few other things.

Then, we did the no no. We got intimate.  Our first conversation was amazingly free flowing and we were cerebrally magnetized. Sweet, supercharged, sexual prose flowed easily between us like two dancers who had practiced forever.  We were both aware that we had violated the primary rule of internet dating but neither of us cared. We were sure we would be great in person and .the phone sex was so much fun and fed right into our mutual hungers for sexual action.

However,  just in case things didn’t work out we did make an agreement that when I got to the stairwell below her apartment and we were in full view of each other then all bets were off if there was not mutual attraction. She or I could call it all off with no explanation and just walk away. Perfect. Well, the big night came and there I stood on the stairs below her walk up apartment.

She buzzed me in.  I walked up to the floor below her and feasted my eyes upon a tall, sexy beauty with giant tits, a tight ass, and long, lean legs. Everything was just as advertised. Wowie!!!  Suddenly I only cared about what she thought of me.  Please, I thought. Please.  I knew I was golden when she smiled at me as I walked in her door, modeled for her and she gasped “Yes” as she fixed her eyes with no shame right on my crotch.

It only got better. We were dying to get into each others mouths and bodies but we had restrained and not even touched until after a romantic dinner. We were savoring every second to keep turning up our heat.  

As the car door closed we threw away our restraints. We grabbed and jumped all over each other like hungry animals.  It was a steaming sexual frenzy. She started to lick my ear  and play with my hard cock and I grabbed her wet panties and stuck my hands all over her wet pussy as we made a beeline back to her apartment. We were quickly rolling around her big  bed getting high on reefer with steam pouring out of our sexual organs. It was fantastic. We made love for hours and hours, went to sleep about 6 am, woke up a few hours later and kept going all day till we couldn’t go anymore. We went out for dinner and both ate like a lions that hadn’t been fed in a week.

She wanted me to immediately move in with her which seemed like a good idea. She had a nice big apartment, no kids and I was as free as a bird having been broken up with my last girlfriend for about 6 months. I had been divorced for 15 years for obvious reasons. So, I was as free as a bird. So was she after a long list of relationships all over the country.

We began a routine of seeing each other every day although we worked different hours We found plenty of time. Our lovemaking stayed frantically hot even after a month passed. It seemed the fire would never go out. I kept bringing clothes over to her place. She cooked candlelight dinners and we had a good time doing things like going to movies, eating dinner out, going to book stores, and going dancing.  After about 2 months I decided to introduce Ellie to my 2 kids then 12 and 15 years old. They liked her. That was good.

It was all good until the fateful night I went out to dinner with my much older brother and his wife. I had confided some personal information to Ellie about family matters just as a test because I had noticed that she talked too much generally but especially when she drank. Too much talking would be a deal breaker.

It had always troubled me to hear her reveal very sensitive, personal information about her own family and past relationships. I did not like that. It would be unacceptable if we were going to have a future.  Then Ellie started drinking and the next thing you know she was spilling her guts to them about how I had told her I had been mistreated as a child, financial information I told her about, and other information I trusted her not to repeat.  She failed the trust test miserably.

There was no interest or pause on her part to even think before she blurted out more and more I had told her.  So, I was really pissed but held it in until we got back to her apartment. Then I started yelling at her and demeaning her for being ignorant and having a big mouth.

I told her I never wanted too see her again and I meant it. I went back to my own apartment and had no contact with her until she soon started calling and harassing me like a lunatic.  She would scream profanities and insults in an uncontrolled way in phone calls that reached twenty or thirty in one hour each time she started calling continually over several weeks..  

I realized that to end her tormenting me I had to take decisive action. So I did. I called her supervisor at work as I had threatened to do. The supervisor listened to me tell her the tale of Ellie harassing me relentlessly and insanely on the phone for several weeks. .

Considering Ellie was a therapist in a psycho ward and I was talking to the head nurse I never would have imagined things could get worse after my call. Wrong. To my amazement her supervisor tore into me and blamed me and all men for Ellis troubles and her own troubles. She said “you are just another misogynist pig. Ellie was fine until she met you a few months ago. Now, she is a basket case. What did you do to her you asshole?”  Then she hung up.

I was shaking like a leaf I had to get this nut away from me but she continued to call and rant and rave several times a week, day and night for another week or so,  So, I decided fear would be the only weapon I had to battle Ellie with.  I told her that I had recorded of all her crazy calls which I still have, and kept notes and remembered all her drunken ramblings when she had bragged about her sexual exploits with celebrities, high ranking politicians and some well known government officials. Very embarrassing stuff and harm could have come to her.

She had been involved with some important people in her 43 years. I told her that one more call to me ever and each of those people, some of who I had already found, would be given recordings of her drunken phone calls to me the and  explicit details of what she had told me she had done with them.. Suddenly, her voice grew soft. “Please don’t” she begged. She was scared straight because she had been in some bad stuff. “I will never call or bother you again”. She hasn’t.

Clark Gable's Life

Q-When was Clark Gable born and when did he die Also, where is he buried?

A-He was born Feb 1, 1901 in Cadiz, Ohio and died November 16,1960 in West Hollywood, California.
    He is buried in Forest Lawn Memorial Park next to his beloved ex-wife actress Carole Lombard who died in a plane crash during WW11 after entertaining troops.

Humphrey Bogart Sick in Last Movie The Harder They Fall

Q-What was the last film Humphrey Bogart made?

A-The Harder They Fall was Boggies last film. It was released in 1956 and was directed by Mark Robson. It also starred Rod Steiger, who  Bogart did not get along with because Steiger was a method actor like Marlon Brando. Bogart was old school and method acting was still not widely accepted.

Bogart's role was based on the character of sportswriter and promoter Harold Conrad.
Bogart was in failing health when the movie was made. It can be seen on his face..

But For Kims Million Dollar Butt Then What?

                               Celebrity Stuff

Q-Who did Kim Kardashian make her famous sex tape with?

A -In February 2007 Kim made the tape with singer, then boyfriend  Ray J. The tape was distributed by  Vivid Entertainment.. Kim sued Vivid then eventually dropped the suit after settling for 5 million dollars..

Q-Has Kim Kardashian ever played a TV role?

A- In the eleventh season of an animated series American Dad on Sept.21, 2014 Kim played the role of an   alien who crash lands in a town named Langley Falls..As a follow up to her participation
Kim posed bare butt on Paper's winter cover and in a pictorial in the winter edition 2014.

The daily traffic on Paper's website shot up from the normal 25,000 daily viewers to over 15 million in one single day thanks to Kardashian"s fabulous butt..

Now, that is a ,expensive ass to carry around.!!

I wonder if it is insured?

As of 2014 Kim Kardashian is supposedly worth 45 million dollars..
Now, what part of that did her butt bring in?

Compulsive Gambling Devours Our Lives

Gambling. One of the nastiest monsters of the world. Feed it and it eats your soul. Starve it and it destroys you mind. To a real compulsive gambler the loss of gambling is good reason for perpetual mourning. Every ounce of desire in your body craves going back to gambling again. The adrenalin, the euphoria, the joy of knowing you will be in action is enough to inspire any gambler no matter how much they have lost. I am not just talking about lost money. I am talking about lost health, family, friends. Losing your whole life. I have gambled for over 50 years and lost it all. In the last few years i have quit gambling and slowly rebuilt my life. Yet, I continue to long for my greatest friend and unconditional lover. Gambling. I was a very big gambler betting on sports, craps, and blackjack. I would win or lose thousands of dollars a day. I figured out that I have lost well over a million dollars in my life. Enough to destroy me financially, mentally, and emotionally. Yet the monster inside my brain lives on unaffected. It says "you can do it David." You can set limits, avoid going out of control, and enjoy the happiness of being in action." My rational mind keeps speaking at the same time. "Go to a G.A. meeting David. You are getting false messages. You are doomed if you gamble. You know that." I do. But,the evil voice tears at my my heart and says "just do it. "You will do it right this time. It will be ok" The logical mind needs constant reinforcement to say no. The evil mind that is supported by emotion needs no nourishment. But it never is.  

Blogger Dummy Gets Expert Help

I asked a blogging expert to give me some help on improving and understanding my blog. He helped me proving that anyone has a chance to learn how to blog because I am beyond a blogging dummy!!...

I'm an old school very computer illiterate and  horribly uneducated blogger who wants to ultimately become a good blogger.and build a big audience 
                                    
I also want to figure out how this whole blogging thing works and see if I can make money at it. I like blogging but not if nobody is reading my stuff.. .

As you can see I have posted plenty of articles with next to no feedback or traffic for my efforts..

 Matt Banner sent me this very useful and valuable analysis of my blog .I am already putting his easy to understand and pertinent information and tips to use..                 .

I asked him if I could publish his letter and he agreed.. 

 I hope this helps someone else out there..

If you have thoughts or information you wish to share please send them in and there is a good chance I will publish them..

David.

Matt Banner

Feb 10, 2015

 

Reply

Hi David,

I took a quick look for you. And although I certainly did not scour every inch of your website, I do have a few thoughts for you that may help:

1) It appears your current strategy for revenue is Google AdSense. While some blogs still use these ads, they certainly do not generate much revenue - not as much as they once did. Most bloggers who want to monetize their blogging efforts focus on promoting affiliate offers, or building an audience that they can direct to an offer they are promoting later. (Review 'Content Marketing' on Google)

2) A few posts back, you made an offer to buy comments. Taking this kind of approach may come across a little desperate to some readers. I would avoid this.

3) Having a fast and reliable server to host your blog can make or break it. You’re using a free website in Blogspot which certainly has its benefits, but doesn't possess everything you need in order to grow your blog because it’s not hosted by YOU.

Check out this article here for more on whether to use a free website service like Blogspot or making a small investment in a self-hosted blog

You can also see how important your hosting company matters here:

4) What are your current strategies for promotion? It appears that many of your articles haven't seen much exposure on social media.

5) Is there a way to narrow down the focus of your topics a little bit?

These are just a few general observations. I of course don't know all the specifics of your current blogging strategy. I offer a number of guides at that you might find useful.

I certainly hope that helps.

- Matt

Perfect Online Dating Pick Up Line

As a veteran of online dating specifically match.com I will share my  best match pick up line. This line has to be delivered in an email to a man or woman you wish to get a response from.

It is short and to the point. If your recipient is interested then the door is wide open for that person to respond. If they do not respond you have wasted very time.You can even copy and paste it. Remember, online dating is a numbers game for us less attractive guys who have to rely on our brains.

The line you email is " I like your picture(s) and profile. Check me out and let me know what you think.

Good Luck

David 
PS Let me know how you do

Good Looks Critical To Success On Online Dating Sites

Success on online dating services such as match and jdate is all about pictures. Just ask people who search for potential girlfriends and boyfriends. I know. My pictures stink so I have always had trouble getting responses. If my good looking, photogenic friends post on a dating site they get instant feedback.

Check it out. Send a message to a woman or man you are interested in. If they are good looking you are dead if you do not look good. Forget about your great profile information. It's all about your picture. Just like in high school. You are cool or you are not. The in crowd rules on the dating sites just like they rule just about everywhere else in social settings.

Prove it to yourself. If you are think you are not good looking do a test.. Send a message to a hot looking woman or man on a dating site. I don't care what their age is or yours.  It does not matter. After you get no response back check to if the person you aere intersted in viewed you. It's on the app to be able do that.  If the person viewed you odds are you were rejected because of your looks. Try it with 50 more people who are attractive. You will get mostly no responses or "no thanks yous".

Then, try sending  messages to some people who are not good looking. Bang. You will get  immediate responses.This applies to ages 21-80!!

So, waste your time on writing beautiful profile information if you want to.. It won't matter if you are not a stud. You will just keep getting rejected. You looks will beat you unless you get very lucky.

That is how it goes on online dating sites. Trust me. I am 66 and  have been at it for twenty years with hundreds of examples. It's easy for the good looking people to attract others just as it  always has been.

Its wickedly hard for those of us who are the ugly ducklings.

But, do not lose heart those of you who are not blessed with all American good looks. You can succeed. You will just have to try much harder. So what?

You are used to that!